Until the Stars Are All Alight

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I. Er. Um.

Do whatever the heck you need to in order to get out of Arkansas and into a large city at the first available opportunity.

(This would've spared me all of Cody and most, if not all, of Nico, maybe college would've been completely different...)

But of course that would open a time vortex of ridiculous proportions, trying to change one's own timeline. I'm not an idiot.

**previously typed**


Cody, Nico, Liz and I went out for Chinese this afternoon before I had to leave for work. My fortune said "Your fortune is on its way!" I shit you not. I was disappointed, first because my fortune was so crappy, and then because it wasn't a real fortune. Unless of course it means my FINANCIAL fortune is on its way...I might be okay with that. =)

Cody's fortune was "Leaders are readers." Nico grabbed them both from us and switched them. XD

A couple of weeks ago I got one that said "A way out of a financial mess is discovered as if by magic!" And now I have a job...hm. IDK. I was hoping to win the lottery, lol. Not that I'm complaining about getting paid to sit around and read books all night.

My favorite one of all time is taped to my other laptop (which reminds me, I still need to take/post pics of THIS one in all its awesome customized glory--lol as I was typing that one of the nurses was like "OMG, cool!"). It says: "Opportunity is knocking--answer it tomorrow." XD

The best story ever from a fortune cookie, though, has got to be one from the other week. Cody and I were debating over dinner. We were thinking Taco Bell but were hemming and hawing, I asked him if he'd rather have something else and he said yes, but I wouldn't go with him. It came out that what he REALLY wanted was Chinese, so we decided to get him Chinese takeout and me Taco Bell and go home and eat them together. He gave me the fortune cookie, and the fortune was "A lifetime of happiness lies ahead of you." I melted right into the couch. =)


I want to say a bit about my book collection. I've been posting a lot of status updates stating what I'm reading, and those of you who chat books with me, or have given or loaned me a book, or recommended a book to me might be interested to know.

( Is long. )

News junkies: yes, major ice storms, blah blah blah, downed power lines, etc etc. I'm fine. Everyone here is fine.

Monday I went to class with Cody, we both heard about the bad weather, so we grabbed lunch on campus, got in the car, and zoomed home. We went through some freezing rain around Henderson, but the roads were okay. Started coming down hard after we got in, and we STAYED in.

I had power until about 9:30-10 Tuesday night. Cody and I still stayed in. When I turned my phone on in the morning (turned off to conserve battery since I couldn't charge it), Nico had called and offered to come get us. We packed up the perishable groceries and refugee-d at his place, since he had power. He was also hosting April and her three kids, so it was a bit crowded, but yay for warmth and showers.

I got power yesterday around noon, if my clock is to be believed. No internet as of 4 PM, but Suddenlink said it would be on "sometime late this afternoon." I haven't been home to check but hopefully it'll be there when I get there. =) (I'm at Nico's now, internetting.)

No telling when I'll get to the flist, but probably once I have internet at home, as I see a week's worth of entries taking me a good two-three hours to browse. =P

...yeah, I'm about 200 entries back. Sigh.

more lol celebs!

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...yeah. Don't ask.

I hate actually posting them on MySpace, because they get deleted after ten days. I like to dig through them now and again and see what my answers were four years ago. =D

Last December, what was your love life like? Pretty shitty. I had found out a month or so prior that the man I thought I would end up marrying (presumptuous on my part, I see in retrospect) had recently married someone else and I was pretty bummed about it, though coping better than I would have thought. Things picked up in January, though. (Not that that worked out, either, but still.)
Who or what can you blame for your mood today? Yesterday. My mood today has been "meh, I wish I was with Cody right now..."
Do you wash your hair in the shower? Of course, though I'm assuming this question means as opposed to the sink, lol.
Do you care what others think about you? Ehh...my friends have a wee bit of influence, but the general populace, no.
What is your fear? Losing Cody. Dogs. Catching my hair on fire. In that order.
Have you ever been kissed in a car? Yes. =D
How are you feeling right now? Ehh. Obviously bored enough that these sounded like a good idea.
What was your last argument about? With Nico, over my political apathy, I'm sure.
Last nap? Yesterday.
Have you ever liked anyone that treated you like crap? Yeah, but I never notice it WHILE I'm being treated like crap, I'll make excuses for the person for a long time. (So I'm glad I'm with someone who treats me like a princess!)
Where would you like to be right now? With Cody.
Ever been told you were loved by someone who didn't mean it? No.
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? That's the plan!!
What were you doing at 10:17 pm last night? I was in the middle of a very intense makeout session with Cody...
Besides this, what are you doing right now? Listening to music. I have a few tabs and stuff open but I'm not actively doing anything else.
Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow? No.
Did you kiss or make out with anyone in this last week? Yes to both, yesterday.
Do you get mad when your current bf/gf talks about an ex? Considering it's ALWAYS "Oh my God you're so much awesome-r than ex," I don't mind at all. =)
Are you afraid to grow up? I am grown up.
Was the person you last kissed physically attractive? Well, I sure as hell think so! (Honestly...I don't think I could kiss anyone that I didn't find at least somewhat attractive. Shallow but true. Additionally, I don't think I could ever kiss anyone but Cody. ^_^)
What was your worst subject in school? Math, hands down.
Want something you can't have? Not that I can think of, really. The things I want and don't have are things I WILL have in time.
What do you do when you're sad? ...call Cody.
Do you hate the last person you kissed? Lol, I don't think I ever could!
Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE? Not of my own, lol, which is why I've yet to send in a PostSecret card. I do have secrets I keep from people until I know them really well, though.
Something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? I really hate going over the circumstances of my adoption, or the fact that I'm adopted at all.
Ever licke​d someone's cheek or forehead? ...yesterday.
Last time you fell asleep in someone's arms? Also yesterday. I head out to Cody's so early that at some point snuggling turns into an unintentional hour-long nap. Not that I mind horribly...
Is the last person you kissed older or younger? A little over four years younger.
Last place ​you took a plane to? Canada.
Have you ever been around someone who was high? Unfortunately.
What are your plans for the weekend? Friday night's the last night of the auction, no plans Saturday (YET), Cody's coming to see me Sunday.
Where did you sleep last night? In my bed. Alone. I very nearly said "fuck it" in favor of staying overnight with Cody, but I just felt bad not asking his parents (who were in bed asleep long before I left).
Ever kissed someone who smokes? No, thankfully. I wanted to at one point. (A particular person, I mean, not just kissing a smoker for the sake of it.)
How many children do you plan on having? NONE!
Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed? Closed, or at least only open a crack. The light from the computer at the other end of the hall would keep me awake, but I don't like for the office door to be closed when I get out of bed.
Own more than 10 pairs of flip-flops? Oh HELL no. They're only one step below Crocs on my hate list.
What is something you wish you had more of? Time with Cody.
What woke you up this morning? Nothing, lol. I didn't get out of bed until 2:30, and that was only because I could NOT sleep any more, lol.
What were you like a year ago? Lonely, upset over the answer to the first question, though better off financially, planning my trip to Canada.


Name a perso​n that you insta​ntly smile​ when you see they'​​re calli​ng?​ Cody, of course. But I smile for a lot of people.
Who'​​s the last perso​n to call you "​​baby"​​?​​ Cody, and he apologized. Lol.
Is your curre​nt relat​ionsh​ip statu​s simpl​e or compl​icate​d?​​ Pretty simple. I love him, he loves me.
Have you ever gone out with a footb​all or baseb​all playe​r or a cheer​leade​r?​​ No. Ew.
Who were you with at 12:​​00 last night​?​​ By then I was alone, unfortunately, making the drive home.
If you'​​re sleep​ing and someo​ne calls​ you what do you say? If I answer, "Hello" is pretty standard. Unless it's like ungodly late (an hour when I shouldn't be awake, not like if I'm sleeping in), then it's still hello, but with worry in my tone.
Feel like talki​ng to someo​ne that you haven​'​​t in a while​?​​ Yeeeeeah...Hobbity and I really haven't talked since Cody and I got together and she's like the last person I haven't updated.
Ready​ for winte​r to come?​​ YES YES YES YES. I'm thinking I'll be breaking out my winter coat by the end of the week!
Have you ever slept​ in a bed with the oppos​ite sex? Not overnight, but yeah, Cody and I have fallen asleep in both our beds.
Are you keepi​ng a big secre​t right​ now? Maaaaaaaaybe...don't ask.
Are you talle​r than 5'​​5"​​?​​ Yes.
How's your heart​ right​ now? Overflowing. In a very good way.
How tickl​ish are you? I have my spots.
Are you in a good mood?​​ Missing Cody, but other than that, yeah.
Are you a mean perso​n?​​ I have my moments.
How is your hair?​​ Fine, I think. Haven't looked at it since like 6ish.
Do you care if peopl​e hate you for no reaso​n?​​ I'd be more confused than anything, but no, not really.
Dark hair or light​ hair in the oppos​ite sex? Dark.
What are your plans​ for tomor​row?​​ Cody's going to text me so I get out of bed and chat with him while he's at work, then McD's with Nico before we go to auction "training." (I'll probably be teaching the freaking training. I'm awesome.)
What is one fact about​ the last perso​n who calle​d you? He's a Mac user. ^_^
Are you getti​ng engag​ed any time soon?​​ Wow. How often do you get to answer yes to that? Yes! Lol. I imagine it'll be official in about six months...
When and where​ did you kiss the last perso​n you kisse​d?​​ In my car, in his driveway, on the lips. Lol.
Have you ever met a gay perso​n?​​ ...BWAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. No, NEVER. XD *is official Straight Ally Outreach of Baxter County Pride*
Have you ever inten​tiona​lly made someo​ne jealo​us?​​ Hm. I think I've tried a few times but I don't know if it worked, lol.
Have you ever dated​ someo​ne older​ than yours​elf?​​ Yeah.
Was your last kiss drunk​ or sober​?​​ Sober. I've never kissed drunk. Actually I've never done anything all-out drunk. But still, something to think about...
Why did your last relat​ionsh​ip end? Really and truly, I've only been in one relationship.
Last time you were truly​ happy​?​​ Last night around 11. Then I had to come home.
Are you satis​fied with what you curre​ntly have in life?​​ No. I need a job. (But I'm happy with everything else.)
Have you ever skipp​ed class​?​​ Only because I was sick. And only twice.
Do peopl​e ever think​ you'​​re older​/​​young​er than you actua​lly are? Both.
Have sex on your mind?​​ ...more often than I'd care to admit.
Is there​ a meani​ng behin​d your myspa​ce song?​​ I just upgraded to the ten-song playlist player, so it's really more a showcase of my all-time favorites than it is particular songs--though yes, they're my favorites for a reason.
Do you own a pair of green​ pants​?​​ Well, they're more of a sage-y color, almost a neutral, but yeah.
Do you belie​ve that what goes aroun​d comes​ aroun​d?​​ Oh yes, which is what keeps me from wreaking revenge on my own behalf. (It worked the last two times!)
Have you ever felt like you hit rock botto​m?​​ Only financially. =(
Who do you miss? CODY!!
Ever felt that no one relat​es to you? Yeah.
Are you avail​able for a relat​ionsh​ip?​​ Nope!
What'​​s the last thing​ to make you laugh​?​​ Nico.
How many peopl​e are you texti​ng?​​ Currently no one. Even Nico's asleep.
Who was the last frien​d you were chill​in'​​ with?​​ Nico.
Do you have a frien​d you can tell stuff​ to and you'​​re sure they won'​​t tell?​ Yeah.
Do you have any plans​ for the weeke​nd?​​ Already answered this.
Does the futur​e scare​ you? No, I'm really looking forward to it as a matter of fact, especially the part that starts a year from now.
Was it a boy or a girl to call you last?​​ Guy, lol.
Is anyon​e overp​rotec​tive of you? Not really. I moved out to fix that problem.
Were you born in the same town you live in now? Yes, actually, though I haven't lived here my whole life.



Where​ was the FIRST​ TIME you ever saw the perso​n you like?​ On the dating site... (plentyoffish.com, it works! It's FREE!)
Do you belie​ve that every​ thing​ happe​ns for a reaso​n?​ Yes indeedy. Like if Sam hadn't dumped me, I wouldn't have signed up for PoF and Cody and I would still be sitting around lonely...or at least, I would. I got lucky.
Are you over your past?​ See previous answer. ^_-
Has anyon​e disap​point​ed you recen​tly?​ Yeah, the State of Arkansas passing Prop One. GRR.
What are you liste​ning to at the momen​t?​ Rhythm and Police by CJ Crew, from DDR.
Do you plan on movin​g with in the next year?​ No, though I suppose it's possible. If I move anywhere it'll be because Cody and I are getting married and we decide to live somewhere other than my place.
Are you a morni​ng perso​n or a night​?​ Night!
Are you a forgi​ving perso​n?​ Ehh...I suppose, though I need to work on the forgetting a bit, lol.
What'​s annoy​ing you right​ now? Not being with Cody, lol.
Does it take a lot to make you cry? Yeah.
Taken​ or singl​e?​ Very happily taken!
Do you like it? XD YES.
Would​ you consi​der adopt​ion?​ Well, if I got pregnant I certainly wouldn't have an abortion...oh, you mean TAKE kids? XD No.
Would​ you rathe​r go to a baseb​all game or a footb​all game?​ I'd rather sit in my room and curl up with a good book. Or Cody, whichever was handier.
Is there​ someo​ne you want to fight​?​ Not really. But now I have that Pink song stuck in my head. ("Na na na na na na na, I wanna start a fight..." It's called So What. Download it, it's freaking catchy.)
Do you belie​ve in true love?​ I HAS IT!
What are you doing​ tonig​ht?​ After this, BEDTIME.
Do you know what you' re weari​ng tomor​row?​ Yeah, if I know I'm leaving the house at all, I generally pick out my clothes the night before, when I'm actually awake, lol.
Do you want to go back in time?​ No, if I had a time machine I'd go FORWARD. And there's not really anything I want to fix badly enough to want to risk changing everything else.
What were you doing​ an hour ago? Um. This.
Have you ever seen someo​ne you knew and purpo​sely avoid​ed seein​g them?​ ...yeah. Usually because I KNOW I know them but can't remember their name.
Do you know anyon​e with such a terri​bly annoy​ing voice​ , that you can't even stand​?​ I think is is pretty much the thing stopping me from getting into "The Nanny." Lol. (However, I like Roseanne, so...)
What were you doing​ at 10am?​ Today? Sleeping. Hardcore.
Is there​ someo​ne you wish you were still​ close​ with?​ Yeah, two or three.
Did you go to sleep​ happy​ last night​?​ Oh yes.
Who was the last girl you talke​d to? Um...Steph, online. If you don't count online I haven't had any contact with any females at all today. O_o
Name somet​hing that made you smile​ today​?​ Seeing the design-your-own Converse that Cody wants. Hee.
When was the last time you talke​d to your numbe​r 1 on your top frien​ds?​ Around 10, I think. Not sure what time I signed out.
Hones​tly has anyon​e ever seen you in your under​wear?​ Not since I was old enough for it to be a sexual thing. My parents, though, obviously.
Is there​ any boy or girl you wish you could​ be with right​ now? Cody!
Have you ever dated​ a frien​d'​ s ex? Nope.
Is there​ a perso​n of the oppos​ite sex that you care a lot about​?​ More than one, but yes, I do have a "significant other," if that's what you're driving at.
Have you ever thoug​ht about​ getti​ng your lip pierc​ed?​ Not in a serious way, lol.
Are you in a good mood right​ now? I'm pretty meh. Miss Cody, stressed about money, but more or less happy.
Last femal​e you slept​ in the same room with?​ Uh...huh. Wow. Oh yeah, the gals the night before Shelly's wedding. Had to think about that.
If you were upset​,​ who' s the first​ girl you would​ go to? Probably Kristy, if I felt the need to go to anyone at all. But it would depend on what I was upset about.
Do you need to say anyth​ing to someo​ne?​ I LOVE YOU CODY!!! <3 (Hee.)
Has anyon​e ever told you they love you? Of course.
Do you get along​ with your mom? Now that I don't have to live with her, I find it much easier to put up with her, but it's still a matter of putting up with her.
Do you fall for peopl​e easil​y?​ Well, hm. It was a trait of mine, but I won't anymore, lol, because I'm taken. And oddly enough it took longer to totally fall for Cody than it usually takes me...which I'm going to interpret as a sign of my own maturity in that area.
Does the last perso​n you held hands​ with​ mean anyth​ing to you? He's everything to me.
Do you think​ you' ll be in a relat​ionsh​ip 3 month​s from now? Oh yes. I better be, lol!
Do you know anyon​e that smoke​s pot? >_< Yes.
Have you ever made out again​st a truck​?​ No, but if that's something that I absolutely MUST experience before I die I'm sure I can get that taken care of soon. However, I've made out against a CAR and I can't imagine that it's much different.
Do you think​ the last perso​n you kisse​d is nice?​ Oh yes. I wouldn't have kissed him otherwise.
Ever kisse​d a blond​e-haire​d,​ blue-eyed perso​n?​ Nope.
Have you ever kisse​d anyon​e whose name start​ed with C? YES!!!
How many kids do you want to have?​ None!
Do you have a best frien​d?​ Yeah. It's more like a circle of a select few.
Do you like your life?​ I do now.
Did you date anyon​e last summe​r?​ Over this last summer I was talking with/falling for Cody. So...I guess not technically since it was September before we met face-to-face, but yes. Lol.
This past summe​r?​ Uh...what? OH. Previous answer goes HERE. To answer last question, then--no, I was still convinced that Duncan would work out. =(
Is it okay if you kiss peopl​e when you'​re singl​e?​ Well, I personally wouldn't kiss someone unless there was some level of commitment, but I guess it's not inherently wrong so long as everyone involved understands what's going on.
What is wrong​ with you right​ now? XD I should be asleep.
Do you plan on kissi​ng the last perso​n you kisse​d again​?​ Many many many many many many many many many many many times. I'm addicted. I doubt he minds.
Do you think​ you can last in a relat​ionsh​ip for 6 month​s?​ I've had one-sided crushes last longer than that even when I was being treated like crap, so I'm pretty sure it's not going to be a challenge. We're 1/3 of the way there! Lol.
Are you too shy to tell peopl​e when you' re devel​oping​ feeli​ngs for them?​ No, I'd ask a guy out. I won't say "I love you" first, though...it's always worked so far. ^_-
Do you dance​ while​ getti​ng ready​ for whate​ver?​ I've been known to dance around in my panties now and again...
Have you ever done somet​hing outra​geous​ly dumb?​ Not outrageously, lol.
What'​ s the worst​ thing​ you've been arres​ted for? Lol, never been arrested.
Do you like the town you live in? Not particularly, but it's better than some. *coughforrestcitycough*
If not, where​ would​ you like to live inste​ad?​ Anywhere further north. The big contenders in my mind are Chicago, St. Louis, and Edmonton or Calgary. Possibly Denver. But we'll see. (Rogers, at least, but I really would like to get the hell out of Arkansas.)
Are you sick right​ now? Um, no. Well, to paraphrase that Scrubs episode, if I looked hard enough I'm sure I could find SOMETHING wrong, but I'm fine, lol.

I lost my job. I accepted a check for $125, and it turned out to be a counterfeit check. Any cash violations involving more than $50 are automatic termination. The manager pretty much told me that it was a flaw in training, not really my fault, she didn't want to fire me, etc etc, but she had no choice.

No idea what the situation will be with unemployment, and can't find out until Monday, really.

I'm more than a little stressed out, but I sure as hell don't want to talk about it anymore--to the point where I'm disabling comments for this entry.

Other than that it was a pretty good day, really. Threw together a costume last night at the last minute--"Oh, hey, I still have those sparkly kitty ears, I'll be Josie from Josie and the Pussycats again." (I did it once before, on lip synch day in Acting One, WAAAAY back in the day.) And it was pretty cute. Kristy took pictures of me in it when I went to drop off my camera (she's borrowing it for the weekend), holding the Rockband guitar. Flippin' hot, and I'll post them later, when I get them. (It'll probably be Monday.)

Regardless of unemployment, etc, I'm probably going to have more free time on my hands for a while. So fuck it. I'm participating in NaNoWriMo this year.

Things to blog about later:
* Steven
* Forrest City
* Nico's party tonight

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You Are 50% Witch

You've got some pretty witchy stuff going on. Even if you're not a witch, you've got to admit that you're a little freaky. You have a strong independent streak - social norms be damned. More power to you. Luckily, the time when you would have been burned at the stake has passed!

Haha. I probably would have been.


( One ganked from Laiken... )

This site is awesome: this group sets up elaborate practical jokes, but they're usually with the goal of making people feel good. =D Read about the original MP3 experiment--I want to do that someday!!--and even the Suicide Jumper is...kinda heartwarming. Food Court Musical, ZOMG!

And when you've entertained yourself, plz 2 continyoo reeding. ...Okay, I know that there are some people who read something romantic and are all "ZOMG, gag me with a chocolate heart," though they seem to be diminishing in number lately. If you're one of those, you may want to skip this entry, lol, 'cause it's pretty much all about Cody. If you're Kristy or Nico you've probably heard a large amount of this already, lol.

I think it's finally happened: I've finally made good decisions regarding a guy. =P Cody and I have been together a week now (or will have been, in about 12 hours), which sadly puts him ahead of Sam, but I'm not worried about his going anywhere anytime soon.

My parents are being so surprisingly chill about the whole thing that I actually told them I'm going down to see him tomorrow. (I should be asleep, but I have to flatiron and don't want to do it in the morning.) And they didn't even throw a hissy about it. WEIRD. But yay for things being easy.

The more Cody and I talk, the awesomer he gets. The latest example would be today--I asked if I had to dress up, since I'm meeting his family and all, and he said no, not really. "No cleavage," lol. And of course I countered this with the obligatory flat-chested self-deprecating joke, and he assured me that A) he didn't care at all how big/small I am, and B) he totally hadn't meant to go there with it, he'd just meant don't dress like a slut, which he knew I never would anyway.

Last night I was over at Kristy's, hanging out while she deployed from home. While she was getting ready, I was at the computer, so I added Cody to her MSN since I actually hang out over there a lot and we'll often both sit in front of the computer and talk to other people, lol. I chatted with him for a while, but finally I had to hand the keyboard over to Kristy so she could get to work. He totally kept chatting with her, and she started telling him about her guy problems and he gave her really good advice. I thought that was incredibly sweet. ^_^ (Of course now and again he'd ask if I was still there and say something to me, too, lol.)

And then on Wednesday (yeah, I'm working backwards, lol) I found I out have the chance to go to St. Louis. (Dad's going to Saskatoon for Lions International US/Canada Forum, flying out of St. Louis, Mom is going to St. Louis to see the kids, and I have a job now but I don't start until October, so I don't have to be home for interviews or anything, so I'm riding along.) I told Mom I wanted to go, thinking it was the weekend between Cody weekends (we're probably going to go every other weekend, and alternate, so we're only making the drive once a month). When I looked at it on a calendar, though, it was in fact the SAME weekend. =( I toyed with the idea of not going after all, but when it came down to it, I'm going to see Cody relatively often, and I haven't seen the kids since the reunion in May and probably won't again until the holidays. I hated to break it to him, but I did. I was all "I hate it that my going means you'll have to wait three weeks," and he said that it would be well worth the wait. When I continued apologizing and assuring him that it wasn't that I particularly wanted to have to wait any longer to see him, he said (and I quote), "it's okay sweetie I understand." He called me sweetie! =D And he was totally serious, too, there was no guilt trip at all. Kristy was like "Well, did you expect anything less?" and I told her I was expecting him to be more disappointed, but instead he was awesome and understanding (and I told him so, lol). As mentioned above, we have resolved the whole three-weeks wait with my going to see him this week, lol. (Tomorrow morning. ZOMG I can't wait to see him!)

Also, when he was here, he gave me some gas money for the drive down. I told him he didn't have to, and that I'd rather he hung onto his money so he could come see me again, lol, and he told me "It's not gas money. It's an investment in my happiness." And you can't argue with that, seriously. Even my mother thought this was incredibly charming when I told her. ^_^

I was involuntarily volunteered to run the Operation Christmas Child booth today at the fair by Dad, and then the crazy weather and tornado alarms and all happened, so I helped dismantle said booth, and then the word came through that we were, in fact, not in danger, so I went to dinner with my parents tonight. I showed them the pic of Cody that I took with my phone, and they both think he needs a haircut and that he and I should go to church together and they DO want to meet him (though they weren't so insistent this time, lol), but really, for them, they're being amazingly nonchalant. I figured they'd freak when I said I was going down there, but they didn't. I also figured they'd freak when I said I was meeting his family when I told them that they wouldn't get to meet him unless I decided to marry him (and I'm only half-kidding), but I just got that trite-but-true bit of advice about how you can tell a lot about how a guy will treat you when you see how he treats his mother. (When talking about her, sometimes he gets pissy, especially when she put the kibosh on his coming to see me the first time we planned it, but he usually follows it up with something like, "But I guess it's understandable, she works so hard, etc etc.")

I was talking with Kristy at some point this week (I don't remember what day now, lol) about Cody and his ever-growing awesomeness, and how he's not someone I ever would have pictured myself with (geekiness notwithstanding), but how much--well, frankly--better he is than any other guy I've ever dated/wanted to date, and she was like, "You know, I bet that Cody isn't everything you want, or at least thought you wanted, but I bet he's everything you need. God knows." And I totally think she's right. I really think that there's some Divine Design working here--I've also been talking to Kristy a lot about how sometimes you have to realize that it's okay to be single. While I still wanted to be in a relationship, I was finally starting to accept that I'd live and be okay even if I never did--and that never falling would be better in the long run than falling for the wrong guy. I have a good circle of friends that are going to take care of me and be there for me if/when I need them, and I'm an independent woman. And yeah, it sounds trite even to me and we've all heard it a million times--but just as I was cursing my luck and was about to decide that the whole dating thing just wasn't worth the hassle anymore, along came Cody--Cody, who has been incredibly patient with me and does his best to allay my fears and insecurities. I don't think I tell him enough just how impressed I am, really.

And on a semi-related note, I've been praying again lately--a lot--and trying to pray more prayers of thankfulness than asking for things. When I do ask for things, they're generally blessings for other people, not myself. I finally feel like things are going right and I have no business asking for anything, like I'm I already getting more than I deserve. I know I've been well-off before in my life (I never had to pay for school, for instance)--for most of my life, really--but I've never felt so appreciative of what I have before. I'm trying to pinpoint when exactly I started feeling like this and I can't remember any closer than that it's definitely been since I've not had a job and since I've met Cody, lol, but before Shelly's wedding. IDK. Maybe Kristy is rubbing off on me, lol. I'm still not thrilled with the idea of church--I'm almost certainly going to have to go while we're in St. Louis >_< --but God's been pretty good to me lately and, well, like Cameron said in that one episode of House, "It means something to me, to be grateful for what I've received."

1. How do you feel about the second to last person you kissed? The second-to-last person to kiss me on the cheek is kinda douchey. Like, not in a "OMG I never want to see him again" way, but in a "huh, what was I thinking in getting that close?" kinda way.
2. What's bothering you right now? That I missed the call from Hastings, because I'm afraid that they think I wasn't serious about the job! Must call first thing in the morning.
3. Will you kiss the last person you kissed again? The odds are 99.99999999%.
4. What is in your wallet? $20, all my cards (credit, debit, alcohol membership cards, driver's license, etc), and some photos.
5. Wallpaper on your computer's desktop? Rurouni Kenshin fanart by Hakubaikou from DA.
6. Background on your cell phone? ...Elijah.
7. Next time you will kiss someone? Probably Sunday after next. Hee.
8. Where was your default picture taken? On MySpace/Facebook I have one up from Shelly's wedding.
9. Eyes: Aquamarine.
10. Life: Is pretty freaking great right now. The only thing that would make it perfect would be a job.
11. Future: ...also pretty freaking great, other than the job thing. But I may have a job--I'll find out first thing tomorrow.
12. Doing this weekend? IDK yet. D&D seems to have fallen apart, so...yeah. No clue. Maybe I'll stay in all night and read a book.
13. Wearing? Pajamas.
16. Listening to? I'm the Least You Could Do by the Bloodhound Gang.
17. Have you ever kissed anyone named Patty? No.
18. What do you smell like? Nothing, really, lol. Nail polish a little.
19. Eating? Not at the moment.
20. On your bed, what is your favorite thing? Squishy pillow!!
21. Do you believe in a soul mate? Yeah.
22. What do you wear to bed? ...pajamas. I have a pair of flannel jammies for winter, and a pair of satin ones for Not Summer, lol, but for the most part I wear drawstring pants or shorts and a t-shirt.
23. Do you remember your dreams? Sometimes. Depends on how vivid they are and how long afterwards I wake up--and whether I tell someone about them, lol.
24. Do you burn easily in the sun? HAHAHAHAHAHA. Natural redhead, keep out of direct sunlight!
25. Have you ever been gambling? Huh. No, not unless you count buying lotto tickets.
27. What did you do this past weekend? Saturday night I watched anime with Kristy and Jared, and Sunday I met up with Cody. =) Then after he left I did laundry and hung out with Kristy all day. Lol.
28. Who do you miss? Cody, Katchan and Esme.
29. Who is the last girl you hugged? Kristy.
30. Orange or apple juice? Either, depending on my mood. Right this minute I'd take orange.
31. Who was the last person you went somewhere with? Nico, and Allan.
32. Have you kissed anyone in the past month? Well, not on the lips, but yes. Hee.
34. Last time you ate a home grown tomato? Ew, tomatoes.
36. What was the last thing you drank? Pepsi. =( The Mountain Dew was out at Taco Bell.
37. Whose house did you go to last night? Kristy's.
38. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? Mom.
39. Do you like someone right now? I more than like him.
40. What do you wear more, slacks, jeans, or sweatpants? Probably a tie between jeans and slacks/trousers, but NEVER sweatpants. Not even to sleep, or if I'm sick.
41. What is the last movie you watched in the theatre? The new Indiana Jones, I think.
42. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink: Dr. Pepper or the Wal*Mart knockoff, cranberry-apple juice, and milk. Oh, and here lately a lot of white zin at Nico's. Lol.
43. What are you excited about? I have a boyfriend who loves me. =) Also the idea of working at Hastings, but that's not for sure yet.
44. Do you want someone you can't have? Well, there's Elijah, but the person I really want I CAN have. Lol. 'Bout freaking time.
45. Who was last to slap your butt? O_o Probably that chick at the club. Kristy thought she was on ecstasy so I called security on her.
46. Where was the last place you went? Nico, Allen and I went to Taco Bell, but only through the drive-thru. Before that Nico and I went to Colton's.
47. What's on your mind right now? Cody, lol.
48. Have you cried recently? Nope.
49. If an unstoppable force comes across an unmovable object then what happens? Zero is divided!
50. Is taking a shower a daily habit? Yes, but I don't always wash my hair.


( You know the drill, more random surveys under the cut... )

Seriously. Paused torrents and the internet is still slow. Probably need to restart the computer.

From David on MySpace, and the answers may run a bit differently now...

Q: Are you proud of the person you've become?
A: Most days. Not always.

Q. Where is your significant other at the moment?
A: Hmm...he got out of class about 30 minutes ago, I'm surprised I'm not on the phone with him.

Q: How did you and your top 4 become friends?
A: Work, camp, work, and internet, in that order.

Q: How late did you stay up last night and why?
A: Last night was weird, I crashed from about 10:30 PM-2 AM, then watched a movie and ended up sleeping from about 6 or 6:30 AM to 11.

Q: What's the connection between you and the last person you texted?
A: I'm his fag hag. Lol.

Q: Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a C?
A: Haha, no, but I might in the not-too-distant future! *dies laughing*

Q: Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
A: Bah. I'm usually doing good to make it to two weeks.

Q: Who was the last person that called you on the phone?
A: Umm...IDK. I missed a call from a number I didn't recognize, and when I called back I got "The customer you are trying to reach has a voice mail box that is not yet set up." So I called again and hung up before it went to voicemail so that they'd have a missed call. Might've been a wrong number.

Q: Who was the last person to send you a MySpace message?
A: I think it was Hobbitmum, but I'm really not sure.

Q: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
A: Um, MINE? Would that not be the answer like 90% of the time? Weird question.

Q: Do you miss anyone?
A: Always.

Q: What does your 8th text message say?
A: I keep my inbox empty.

Q: Have you held hands with anyone today?
A: Not today. Soon maybe.

Q: What are you excited about?
A: Cody coming to visit me.

Q: Plans for tonight?
A: Nope.

Q: Do you like to cuddle?
A: Very much.

Q: What are your plans for the weekend?
A: Being in a wedding! =D

Q: Whats your hair look like today?
A: I haven't looked in a mirror since this morning, but it must be pretty hot because a random woman in the Wal*Mart parking lot told me it was really pretty. =D

Q: Did you ever lose a friend?
A: Yeah.

Q: What are you doing right now?
A: ...filling out this meme.

Q: Whats the last thing you had to drink?
A: Dr. Pepper.

Q: What was the last thing you ate?
A: A lime popsicle.

Q: Ever go camping?
A: Eww, nature.

Q: Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
A: Not unless it was when I was too little to remember. Even at the age of three, when my mom read me that book "I Love You Forever" and the kid flushes his mom's watch, I was all "Um...WHY?"

Q: Are you someone's best friend?
A: Several people's, actually.

Q: Do you have a dog?
A: I'm terrified of dogs.

Q: Do you like birds?
A: Meh.

Q: Biggest annoyance in your life today?
A: Distance.

Q: Who do you tell everything to?
A: No one, really. I have different go-to friends for different topics.

Q. Have you spoken to your mother today?
A: We went shopping. She bought me a cheese grater, yay!

Q: Are you happy?
A: I'm kinda cranky, actually, for no apparent reason.

Q: Do you drink bottled water?
A: If I'm going to drink plain water (not likely) I definitely prefer it not be city water from the tap.

Q: Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now?
A: I highly doubt it will be that long.

Q: Does anyone love you?
A: No. I'm TOTALLY unlovable. XD

Q: Do you fall for people easily?
A: Ehh...yeah. -_-*

Q: When is the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends?
A: Yesterday.

Q: Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?
A: I can't remember the last time I shared a bed. For real. I want to say it was with Shelly for some camp thing or another, in which case, yes, she means a lot to me, and I'm going to be in her wedding this weekend and all, but whoever it was, it was a really long time ago, and that's probably not at all what this question was driving at. Lol.

Q: Are you too forgiving?
A: Sometimes, and sometimes not enough. Overall I'd say yes though.

Q: Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
A: I would be willing to bet that at least one person is, and fairly sure there are more.

Q: Do you like your name?
A: First and last, yes, full name with middle initial, yes, middle name, no.

Q: Did the one person who hurt you the most recently apologize?
A: The people who have hurt me most in my life probably have no idea that they did anything at all.

Q: Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
A: Not really. If they're that petty I don't want them around me anyway.

Q: What are you wearing?
A: Purple-and-metallic striped shirt and black pinstriped pants. Plus jewelry, and earlier I had on purple patent-leather Mary Janes, but I'm barefoot now.

Q: Do you remember your dreams?
A: It depends on how vivid they are and how quickly I have to wake up. I've had some VERY vivid ones lately.

Q: Was this your best summer?
A: Hmm...there's a couple weeks to go, and honestly, if things go like I think they will over the next few weeks, the answer will probably be yes.

Q: Were you happy when you woke up today?
A: No, the alarm was going off.

Q: Who'd you last eat with?
A: Mom.

Q: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
A: Lol, wow, these question-writers know me! Hmm...I think it was probably Dr. Pepper.

Q: Did your last kiss mean anything?
A: It was one of my nieces or nephews, so yeah.

Q: Would you ever date someone who thought they knew EVERYTHING?
A: Well, I wouldn't date someone stupid!

Q: How long was your last phone call?
A: Like 15 seconds, lol. I just had one question and Dad was in a hurry.

Q: Do you smoke weed regularly?
A: I don't smoke weed AT ALL.

Q: Do you like someone right now?
A: Yes indeedy!

Q: Are you playing hard to get right now?
A: No, I just AM hard to get. But I'm worth it!

Q: How many people have you kissed that had a name that started with the letter Z?
A: Zee...ro! Lol.


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