Until the Stars Are All Alight

My grandma sent me some money to help with the legal fees, and I'm writing her a thank-you note.

I'm using one of the thank-you note cards leftover from wedding presents.

It seemed appropriate.

Evidently, I am not as sneaky as I thought, and the whole office knows that Cody and I are not together.

On the bright side I took down the wedding pictures that have been on my desk this whole time. I am debating on how childish it might be to replace them with a picture of Darren. (Yeah, the eye candy would be nice, but that's probably not going to happen considering I already get teased a bit for my fannishness. Then again there's one girl there who has a frekaing JUSTIN BIEBER calendar so I don't know that anyone would have any room to say anything.)

Is it weird that I'm already mentally planning my NEXT wedding the same way I did the first one--you know, when it's lightyears before I've even met anyone?

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Honestly, at this point I think I'd be the person wanting to hold off a little while. =/ But I certainly wouldn't wait forever if this was the case. I'm not interested in being in a relationship that isn't potentially going to lead to marriage sooner or later, but I think last time was definitely rushed.

(The whole no-sex-except-with-spouse thing. It's a motivator for sure.)




In other news, my niece posted: "If another person treats me like im stupid im going to punch them.. Seriously." on Facebook. I'm debating whether or not to comment "I'm*" just to annoy her. =)

Yeah. Doing it. XD

I'm toying with the idea of rearranging my room. (By which I mean my office.)

I was watching makeup tutorials on YouTube, which always makes me want to MAKE makeup tutorials, and I was kind of thinking about how the last time I tried that, it was really annoying because my desk faces the window, therefore the entire room is in the background, and therefore I would have to clean my room every time I wanted to make one.

(My sanity requires that I have one room that I don't worry about keeping immaculate.)

The best vloggers all seem to have their back to a wall in their vids. Makes sense.

But then it's like...do I really want to fuss with that when I intend to move ASAP? I just went through and re-stacked the clutter in here to take up less space and decided not to actually go through it and organize, pending moving. Maybe I need to focus not on rearranging stuff that's mostly working but, if I get in a cleaning/organizing sort of mood, on getting rid of smaller clutter--like the stack of stuff on my scanner that I intended to scan but have been too lazy to fuss with. That kind of thing.

I'm also considering giving all my scrapbooking stuff to Alicia, because I've gotten to a place where I'd rather put the pictures online and get comments than to go to all that trouble for the pics to sit up on a shelf in a book. She, on the other hand, has four kids that she's making scrapbooks for and still loves it. So there's that. I don't think I'm ever going to take it up again--even if I was independently wealthy and all my time was my own, there are just so many other things I'd rather spend my time and money on.

Yeah okay that's it, I'm spending the rest of my organizing. More or less. Until the Glee Project. I'm setting an alarm for myself so I don't forget this time!

Also. I was debating between Fayetteville and St. Louis, but now I've pretty much made my mind up. I kept thinking about Fayetteville, and the truth is even though it'd be a lot of fun, I don't think I'd ever consider it permanent, it would just be a stepping stone on my way to bigger and better things. St. Louis, on the other hand, could very easily be permanent. (I won't rule out the possibility of ending up in Chicago or New York or maybe even England, but that's kind of like a win-the-lottery dream that I don't think I'd ever actively pursue.)

I want to be in a (geographical) place I'm happy being. If I run into the issue again of falling in love with someone who refuses to EVER MOVE AWAY EVER then I need to be in a place where I'm okay with that.

The person I'm being in the wake of Cody having left me is so, so different than the person I thought I'd be if--or later, when--he did. I honestly figured I'd be a Bella Swan, kind of wake up one day and realize I hadn't done anything in like four months. But I've been more creative than I have in a long time, and self-confident (though that's also largely stemming from weight loss, not gonna lie), and truly I am--or at least am aspiring to be--more of a Pink than anything.


The attitude, moreso than the actual behavior, lol. Cody already told me anything I did to his car he'd do to mine in return. =P

Cody said something the other day. It was offhand, but it hit me. I had complained a few days before that the bedding he'd brought from Nico's was stinky and would need to be washed--but he went ahead and used one of the throw blankets when he got cold.

A day or two ago, he told me that he was finally able to tell that it smelled. This, after about a month living here.

And I realized that he's been inhaling secondhand smoke every place he's lived since his mom took up the habit when he was four.

I felt so bad that he'd been living with Nico for the previous seven months.

I hate actually posting them on MySpace, because they get deleted after ten days. I like to dig through them now and again and see what my answers were four years ago. =D

Last December, what was your love life like? Pretty shitty. I had found out a month or so prior that the man I thought I would end up marrying (presumptuous on my part, I see in retrospect) had recently married someone else and I was pretty bummed about it, though coping better than I would have thought. Things picked up in January, though. (Not that that worked out, either, but still.)
Who or what can you blame for your mood today? Yesterday. My mood today has been "meh, I wish I was with Cody right now..."
Do you wash your hair in the shower? Of course, though I'm assuming this question means as opposed to the sink, lol.
Do you care what others think about you? Ehh...my friends have a wee bit of influence, but the general populace, no.
What is your fear? Losing Cody. Dogs. Catching my hair on fire. In that order.
Have you ever been kissed in a car? Yes. =D
How are you feeling right now? Ehh. Obviously bored enough that these sounded like a good idea.
What was your last argument about? With Nico, over my political apathy, I'm sure.
Last nap? Yesterday.
Have you ever liked anyone that treated you like crap? Yeah, but I never notice it WHILE I'm being treated like crap, I'll make excuses for the person for a long time. (So I'm glad I'm with someone who treats me like a princess!)
Where would you like to be right now? With Cody.
Ever been told you were loved by someone who didn't mean it? No.
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? That's the plan!!
What were you doing at 10:17 pm last night? I was in the middle of a very intense makeout session with Cody...
Besides this, what are you doing right now? Listening to music. I have a few tabs and stuff open but I'm not actively doing anything else.
Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow? No.
Did you kiss or make out with anyone in this last week? Yes to both, yesterday.
Do you get mad when your current bf/gf talks about an ex? Considering it's ALWAYS "Oh my God you're so much awesome-r than ex," I don't mind at all. =)
Are you afraid to grow up? I am grown up.
Was the person you last kissed physically attractive? Well, I sure as hell think so! (Honestly...I don't think I could kiss anyone that I didn't find at least somewhat attractive. Shallow but true. Additionally, I don't think I could ever kiss anyone but Cody. ^_^)
What was your worst subject in school? Math, hands down.
Want something you can't have? Not that I can think of, really. The things I want and don't have are things I WILL have in time.
What do you do when you're sad? ...call Cody.
Do you hate the last person you kissed? Lol, I don't think I ever could!
Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE? Not of my own, lol, which is why I've yet to send in a PostSecret card. I do have secrets I keep from people until I know them really well, though.
Something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? I really hate going over the circumstances of my adoption, or the fact that I'm adopted at all.
Ever licke​d someone's cheek or forehead? ...yesterday.
Last time you fell asleep in someone's arms? Also yesterday. I head out to Cody's so early that at some point snuggling turns into an unintentional hour-long nap. Not that I mind horribly...
Is the last person you kissed older or younger? A little over four years younger.
Last place ​you took a plane to? Canada.
Have you ever been around someone who was high? Unfortunately.
What are your plans for the weekend? Friday night's the last night of the auction, no plans Saturday (YET), Cody's coming to see me Sunday.
Where did you sleep last night? In my bed. Alone. I very nearly said "fuck it" in favor of staying overnight with Cody, but I just felt bad not asking his parents (who were in bed asleep long before I left).
Ever kissed someone who smokes? No, thankfully. I wanted to at one point. (A particular person, I mean, not just kissing a smoker for the sake of it.)
How many children do you plan on having? NONE!
Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed? Closed, or at least only open a crack. The light from the computer at the other end of the hall would keep me awake, but I don't like for the office door to be closed when I get out of bed.
Own more than 10 pairs of flip-flops? Oh HELL no. They're only one step below Crocs on my hate list.
What is something you wish you had more of? Time with Cody.
What woke you up this morning? Nothing, lol. I didn't get out of bed until 2:30, and that was only because I could NOT sleep any more, lol.
What were you like a year ago? Lonely, upset over the answer to the first question, though better off financially, planning my trip to Canada.


Name a perso​n that you insta​ntly smile​ when you see they'​​re calli​ng?​ Cody, of course. But I smile for a lot of people.
Who'​​s the last perso​n to call you "​​baby"​​?​​ Cody, and he apologized. Lol.
Is your curre​nt relat​ionsh​ip statu​s simpl​e or compl​icate​d?​​ Pretty simple. I love him, he loves me.
Have you ever gone out with a footb​all or baseb​all playe​r or a cheer​leade​r?​​ No. Ew.
Who were you with at 12:​​00 last night​?​​ By then I was alone, unfortunately, making the drive home.
If you'​​re sleep​ing and someo​ne calls​ you what do you say? If I answer, "Hello" is pretty standard. Unless it's like ungodly late (an hour when I shouldn't be awake, not like if I'm sleeping in), then it's still hello, but with worry in my tone.
Feel like talki​ng to someo​ne that you haven​'​​t in a while​?​​ Yeeeeeah...Hobbity and I really haven't talked since Cody and I got together and she's like the last person I haven't updated.
Ready​ for winte​r to come?​​ YES YES YES YES. I'm thinking I'll be breaking out my winter coat by the end of the week!
Have you ever slept​ in a bed with the oppos​ite sex? Not overnight, but yeah, Cody and I have fallen asleep in both our beds.
Are you keepi​ng a big secre​t right​ now? Maaaaaaaaybe...don't ask.
Are you talle​r than 5'​​5"​​?​​ Yes.
How's your heart​ right​ now? Overflowing. In a very good way.
How tickl​ish are you? I have my spots.
Are you in a good mood?​​ Missing Cody, but other than that, yeah.
Are you a mean perso​n?​​ I have my moments.
How is your hair?​​ Fine, I think. Haven't looked at it since like 6ish.
Do you care if peopl​e hate you for no reaso​n?​​ I'd be more confused than anything, but no, not really.
Dark hair or light​ hair in the oppos​ite sex? Dark.
What are your plans​ for tomor​row?​​ Cody's going to text me so I get out of bed and chat with him while he's at work, then McD's with Nico before we go to auction "training." (I'll probably be teaching the freaking training. I'm awesome.)
What is one fact about​ the last perso​n who calle​d you? He's a Mac user. ^_^
Are you getti​ng engag​ed any time soon?​​ Wow. How often do you get to answer yes to that? Yes! Lol. I imagine it'll be official in about six months...
When and where​ did you kiss the last perso​n you kisse​d?​​ In my car, in his driveway, on the lips. Lol.
Have you ever met a gay perso​n?​​ ...BWAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. No, NEVER. XD *is official Straight Ally Outreach of Baxter County Pride*
Have you ever inten​tiona​lly made someo​ne jealo​us?​​ Hm. I think I've tried a few times but I don't know if it worked, lol.
Have you ever dated​ someo​ne older​ than yours​elf?​​ Yeah.
Was your last kiss drunk​ or sober​?​​ Sober. I've never kissed drunk. Actually I've never done anything all-out drunk. But still, something to think about...
Why did your last relat​ionsh​ip end? Really and truly, I've only been in one relationship.
Last time you were truly​ happy​?​​ Last night around 11. Then I had to come home.
Are you satis​fied with what you curre​ntly have in life?​​ No. I need a job. (But I'm happy with everything else.)
Have you ever skipp​ed class​?​​ Only because I was sick. And only twice.
Do peopl​e ever think​ you'​​re older​/​​young​er than you actua​lly are? Both.
Have sex on your mind?​​ ...more often than I'd care to admit.
Is there​ a meani​ng behin​d your myspa​ce song?​​ I just upgraded to the ten-song playlist player, so it's really more a showcase of my all-time favorites than it is particular songs--though yes, they're my favorites for a reason.
Do you own a pair of green​ pants​?​​ Well, they're more of a sage-y color, almost a neutral, but yeah.
Do you belie​ve that what goes aroun​d comes​ aroun​d?​​ Oh yes, which is what keeps me from wreaking revenge on my own behalf. (It worked the last two times!)
Have you ever felt like you hit rock botto​m?​​ Only financially. =(
Who do you miss? CODY!!
Ever felt that no one relat​es to you? Yeah.
Are you avail​able for a relat​ionsh​ip?​​ Nope!
What'​​s the last thing​ to make you laugh​?​​ Nico.
How many peopl​e are you texti​ng?​​ Currently no one. Even Nico's asleep.
Who was the last frien​d you were chill​in'​​ with?​​ Nico.
Do you have a frien​d you can tell stuff​ to and you'​​re sure they won'​​t tell?​ Yeah.
Do you have any plans​ for the weeke​nd?​​ Already answered this.
Does the futur​e scare​ you? No, I'm really looking forward to it as a matter of fact, especially the part that starts a year from now.
Was it a boy or a girl to call you last?​​ Guy, lol.
Is anyon​e overp​rotec​tive of you? Not really. I moved out to fix that problem.
Were you born in the same town you live in now? Yes, actually, though I haven't lived here my whole life.



Where​ was the FIRST​ TIME you ever saw the perso​n you like?​ On the dating site... (plentyoffish.com, it works! It's FREE!)
Do you belie​ve that every​ thing​ happe​ns for a reaso​n?​ Yes indeedy. Like if Sam hadn't dumped me, I wouldn't have signed up for PoF and Cody and I would still be sitting around lonely...or at least, I would. I got lucky.
Are you over your past?​ See previous answer. ^_-
Has anyon​e disap​point​ed you recen​tly?​ Yeah, the State of Arkansas passing Prop One. GRR.
What are you liste​ning to at the momen​t?​ Rhythm and Police by CJ Crew, from DDR.
Do you plan on movin​g with in the next year?​ No, though I suppose it's possible. If I move anywhere it'll be because Cody and I are getting married and we decide to live somewhere other than my place.
Are you a morni​ng perso​n or a night​?​ Night!
Are you a forgi​ving perso​n?​ Ehh...I suppose, though I need to work on the forgetting a bit, lol.
What'​s annoy​ing you right​ now? Not being with Cody, lol.
Does it take a lot to make you cry? Yeah.
Taken​ or singl​e?​ Very happily taken!
Do you like it? XD YES.
Would​ you consi​der adopt​ion?​ Well, if I got pregnant I certainly wouldn't have an abortion...oh, you mean TAKE kids? XD No.
Would​ you rathe​r go to a baseb​all game or a footb​all game?​ I'd rather sit in my room and curl up with a good book. Or Cody, whichever was handier.
Is there​ someo​ne you want to fight​?​ Not really. But now I have that Pink song stuck in my head. ("Na na na na na na na, I wanna start a fight..." It's called So What. Download it, it's freaking catchy.)
Do you belie​ve in true love?​ I HAS IT!
What are you doing​ tonig​ht?​ After this, BEDTIME.
Do you know what you' re weari​ng tomor​row?​ Yeah, if I know I'm leaving the house at all, I generally pick out my clothes the night before, when I'm actually awake, lol.
Do you want to go back in time?​ No, if I had a time machine I'd go FORWARD. And there's not really anything I want to fix badly enough to want to risk changing everything else.
What were you doing​ an hour ago? Um. This.
Have you ever seen someo​ne you knew and purpo​sely avoid​ed seein​g them?​ ...yeah. Usually because I KNOW I know them but can't remember their name.
Do you know anyon​e with such a terri​bly annoy​ing voice​ , that you can't even stand​?​ I think is is pretty much the thing stopping me from getting into "The Nanny." Lol. (However, I like Roseanne, so...)
What were you doing​ at 10am?​ Today? Sleeping. Hardcore.
Is there​ someo​ne you wish you were still​ close​ with?​ Yeah, two or three.
Did you go to sleep​ happy​ last night​?​ Oh yes.
Who was the last girl you talke​d to? Um...Steph, online. If you don't count online I haven't had any contact with any females at all today. O_o
Name somet​hing that made you smile​ today​?​ Seeing the design-your-own Converse that Cody wants. Hee.
When was the last time you talke​d to your numbe​r 1 on your top frien​ds?​ Around 10, I think. Not sure what time I signed out.
Hones​tly has anyon​e ever seen you in your under​wear?​ Not since I was old enough for it to be a sexual thing. My parents, though, obviously.
Is there​ any boy or girl you wish you could​ be with right​ now? Cody!
Have you ever dated​ a frien​d'​ s ex? Nope.
Is there​ a perso​n of the oppos​ite sex that you care a lot about​?​ More than one, but yes, I do have a "significant other," if that's what you're driving at.
Have you ever thoug​ht about​ getti​ng your lip pierc​ed?​ Not in a serious way, lol.
Are you in a good mood right​ now? I'm pretty meh. Miss Cody, stressed about money, but more or less happy.
Last femal​e you slept​ in the same room with?​ Uh...huh. Wow. Oh yeah, the gals the night before Shelly's wedding. Had to think about that.
If you were upset​,​ who' s the first​ girl you would​ go to? Probably Kristy, if I felt the need to go to anyone at all. But it would depend on what I was upset about.
Do you need to say anyth​ing to someo​ne?​ I LOVE YOU CODY!!! <3 (Hee.)
Has anyon​e ever told you they love you? Of course.
Do you get along​ with your mom? Now that I don't have to live with her, I find it much easier to put up with her, but it's still a matter of putting up with her.
Do you fall for peopl​e easil​y?​ Well, hm. It was a trait of mine, but I won't anymore, lol, because I'm taken. And oddly enough it took longer to totally fall for Cody than it usually takes me...which I'm going to interpret as a sign of my own maturity in that area.
Does the last perso​n you held hands​ with​ mean anyth​ing to you? He's everything to me.
Do you think​ you' ll be in a relat​ionsh​ip 3 month​s from now? Oh yes. I better be, lol!
Do you know anyon​e that smoke​s pot? >_< Yes.
Have you ever made out again​st a truck​?​ No, but if that's something that I absolutely MUST experience before I die I'm sure I can get that taken care of soon. However, I've made out against a CAR and I can't imagine that it's much different.
Do you think​ the last perso​n you kisse​d is nice?​ Oh yes. I wouldn't have kissed him otherwise.
Ever kisse​d a blond​e-haire​d,​ blue-eyed perso​n?​ Nope.
Have you ever kisse​d anyon​e whose name start​ed with C? YES!!!
How many kids do you want to have?​ None!
Do you have a best frien​d?​ Yeah. It's more like a circle of a select few.
Do you like your life?​ I do now.
Did you date anyon​e last summe​r?​ Over this last summer I was talking with/falling for Cody. So...I guess not technically since it was September before we met face-to-face, but yes. Lol.
This past summe​r?​ Uh...what? OH. Previous answer goes HERE. To answer last question, then--no, I was still convinced that Duncan would work out. =(
Is it okay if you kiss peopl​e when you'​re singl​e?​ Well, I personally wouldn't kiss someone unless there was some level of commitment, but I guess it's not inherently wrong so long as everyone involved understands what's going on.
What is wrong​ with you right​ now? XD I should be asleep.
Do you plan on kissi​ng the last perso​n you kisse​d again​?​ Many many many many many many many many many many many times. I'm addicted. I doubt he minds.
Do you think​ you can last in a relat​ionsh​ip for 6 month​s?​ I've had one-sided crushes last longer than that even when I was being treated like crap, so I'm pretty sure it's not going to be a challenge. We're 1/3 of the way there! Lol.
Are you too shy to tell peopl​e when you' re devel​oping​ feeli​ngs for them?​ No, I'd ask a guy out. I won't say "I love you" first, though...it's always worked so far. ^_-
Do you dance​ while​ getti​ng ready​ for whate​ver?​ I've been known to dance around in my panties now and again...
Have you ever done somet​hing outra​geous​ly dumb?​ Not outrageously, lol.
What'​ s the worst​ thing​ you've been arres​ted for? Lol, never been arrested.
Do you like the town you live in? Not particularly, but it's better than some. *coughforrestcitycough*
If not, where​ would​ you like to live inste​ad?​ Anywhere further north. The big contenders in my mind are Chicago, St. Louis, and Edmonton or Calgary. Possibly Denver. But we'll see. (Rogers, at least, but I really would like to get the hell out of Arkansas.)
Are you sick right​ now? Um, no. Well, to paraphrase that Scrubs episode, if I looked hard enough I'm sure I could find SOMETHING wrong, but I'm fine, lol.

This site is awesome: this group sets up elaborate practical jokes, but they're usually with the goal of making people feel good. =D Read about the original MP3 experiment--I want to do that someday!!--and even the Suicide Jumper is...kinda heartwarming. Food Court Musical, ZOMG!

And when you've entertained yourself, plz 2 continyoo reeding. ...Okay, I know that there are some people who read something romantic and are all "ZOMG, gag me with a chocolate heart," though they seem to be diminishing in number lately. If you're one of those, you may want to skip this entry, lol, 'cause it's pretty much all about Cody. If you're Kristy or Nico you've probably heard a large amount of this already, lol.

I think it's finally happened: I've finally made good decisions regarding a guy. =P Cody and I have been together a week now (or will have been, in about 12 hours), which sadly puts him ahead of Sam, but I'm not worried about his going anywhere anytime soon.

My parents are being so surprisingly chill about the whole thing that I actually told them I'm going down to see him tomorrow. (I should be asleep, but I have to flatiron and don't want to do it in the morning.) And they didn't even throw a hissy about it. WEIRD. But yay for things being easy.

The more Cody and I talk, the awesomer he gets. The latest example would be today--I asked if I had to dress up, since I'm meeting his family and all, and he said no, not really. "No cleavage," lol. And of course I countered this with the obligatory flat-chested self-deprecating joke, and he assured me that A) he didn't care at all how big/small I am, and B) he totally hadn't meant to go there with it, he'd just meant don't dress like a slut, which he knew I never would anyway.

Last night I was over at Kristy's, hanging out while she deployed from home. While she was getting ready, I was at the computer, so I added Cody to her MSN since I actually hang out over there a lot and we'll often both sit in front of the computer and talk to other people, lol. I chatted with him for a while, but finally I had to hand the keyboard over to Kristy so she could get to work. He totally kept chatting with her, and she started telling him about her guy problems and he gave her really good advice. I thought that was incredibly sweet. ^_^ (Of course now and again he'd ask if I was still there and say something to me, too, lol.)

And then on Wednesday (yeah, I'm working backwards, lol) I found I out have the chance to go to St. Louis. (Dad's going to Saskatoon for Lions International US/Canada Forum, flying out of St. Louis, Mom is going to St. Louis to see the kids, and I have a job now but I don't start until October, so I don't have to be home for interviews or anything, so I'm riding along.) I told Mom I wanted to go, thinking it was the weekend between Cody weekends (we're probably going to go every other weekend, and alternate, so we're only making the drive once a month). When I looked at it on a calendar, though, it was in fact the SAME weekend. =( I toyed with the idea of not going after all, but when it came down to it, I'm going to see Cody relatively often, and I haven't seen the kids since the reunion in May and probably won't again until the holidays. I hated to break it to him, but I did. I was all "I hate it that my going means you'll have to wait three weeks," and he said that it would be well worth the wait. When I continued apologizing and assuring him that it wasn't that I particularly wanted to have to wait any longer to see him, he said (and I quote), "it's okay sweetie I understand." He called me sweetie! =D And he was totally serious, too, there was no guilt trip at all. Kristy was like "Well, did you expect anything less?" and I told her I was expecting him to be more disappointed, but instead he was awesome and understanding (and I told him so, lol). As mentioned above, we have resolved the whole three-weeks wait with my going to see him this week, lol. (Tomorrow morning. ZOMG I can't wait to see him!)

Also, when he was here, he gave me some gas money for the drive down. I told him he didn't have to, and that I'd rather he hung onto his money so he could come see me again, lol, and he told me "It's not gas money. It's an investment in my happiness." And you can't argue with that, seriously. Even my mother thought this was incredibly charming when I told her. ^_^

I was involuntarily volunteered to run the Operation Christmas Child booth today at the fair by Dad, and then the crazy weather and tornado alarms and all happened, so I helped dismantle said booth, and then the word came through that we were, in fact, not in danger, so I went to dinner with my parents tonight. I showed them the pic of Cody that I took with my phone, and they both think he needs a haircut and that he and I should go to church together and they DO want to meet him (though they weren't so insistent this time, lol), but really, for them, they're being amazingly nonchalant. I figured they'd freak when I said I was going down there, but they didn't. I also figured they'd freak when I said I was meeting his family when I told them that they wouldn't get to meet him unless I decided to marry him (and I'm only half-kidding), but I just got that trite-but-true bit of advice about how you can tell a lot about how a guy will treat you when you see how he treats his mother. (When talking about her, sometimes he gets pissy, especially when she put the kibosh on his coming to see me the first time we planned it, but he usually follows it up with something like, "But I guess it's understandable, she works so hard, etc etc.")

I was talking with Kristy at some point this week (I don't remember what day now, lol) about Cody and his ever-growing awesomeness, and how he's not someone I ever would have pictured myself with (geekiness notwithstanding), but how much--well, frankly--better he is than any other guy I've ever dated/wanted to date, and she was like, "You know, I bet that Cody isn't everything you want, or at least thought you wanted, but I bet he's everything you need. God knows." And I totally think she's right. I really think that there's some Divine Design working here--I've also been talking to Kristy a lot about how sometimes you have to realize that it's okay to be single. While I still wanted to be in a relationship, I was finally starting to accept that I'd live and be okay even if I never did--and that never falling would be better in the long run than falling for the wrong guy. I have a good circle of friends that are going to take care of me and be there for me if/when I need them, and I'm an independent woman. And yeah, it sounds trite even to me and we've all heard it a million times--but just as I was cursing my luck and was about to decide that the whole dating thing just wasn't worth the hassle anymore, along came Cody--Cody, who has been incredibly patient with me and does his best to allay my fears and insecurities. I don't think I tell him enough just how impressed I am, really.

And on a semi-related note, I've been praying again lately--a lot--and trying to pray more prayers of thankfulness than asking for things. When I do ask for things, they're generally blessings for other people, not myself. I finally feel like things are going right and I have no business asking for anything, like I'm I already getting more than I deserve. I know I've been well-off before in my life (I never had to pay for school, for instance)--for most of my life, really--but I've never felt so appreciative of what I have before. I'm trying to pinpoint when exactly I started feeling like this and I can't remember any closer than that it's definitely been since I've not had a job and since I've met Cody, lol, but before Shelly's wedding. IDK. Maybe Kristy is rubbing off on me, lol. I'm still not thrilled with the idea of church--I'm almost certainly going to have to go while we're in St. Louis >_< --but God's been pretty good to me lately and, well, like Cameron said in that one episode of House, "It means something to me, to be grateful for what I've received."

I think I mentioned I got my address labels (printed correctly this time!) and filed away the books I've purchased since I moved in. I realized that I did, in fact, buy the second edition of the New York Times Crossword Dictionary. QUITE helpful, actually--I did the Baxter Bulletin crossword and for once I got absolutely all of the answers and didn't have to make any guesses and go back and unmake them, lol. 'Twas full of awesome. ^_^

And now, MEMES:

INTRODUCE YOURSELVES! Answer these in a comment, then post them on your journal (if you want to) so I can answer!
1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Where do you live:
4: What are you studying/What are you working as:
5. What makes you happy:
6. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
7. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A song:
4: A band:

FANDOM
1. Favorite Fandom:
2. OTP/OT3:
3. Icon/Fic Journal (so I can join):

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you?

Your Ice Cream Personality:

You are not a particularly modest person. You're proud of who you are, and you don't care who knows it. You are incredibly cautious. You rather miss out on something than make a mistake. No one would ever call you wild... but they would call you responsible. You are a fairly open minded person with a wide range of tastes. You are quite accepting of unusual ideas and people. You tend to have a one track mind. You prefer not to multitask. You are a serious and contemplative person. You definitely do your own thing in life.

Yes, yes, yes, yes, and yes.


( MOAR MEMES HEAR )

This amuses me muchly. The fact that the gay dude looks a lot like Ryan doesn't help. (I went hunting for headlines. ^_^)

Jobhunt: meh. I applied for three things today. Doctor's office sounds awesome. Srsly.

I HAVE CURTAINS! IN MAH BEDROOM! They're very sheer and looking down the hallway at them it barely registers that they're even there, but they tint the light purple, and I bet once it's dark out, they're going to read more like "GIANT RECTANGLE OF PURPLE ON THE WALL FTW!" Yay.

Curtain rods are only 97 cents. Seriously.

I cooked again! I actually went and bought a bigger frying pan. Nine inches wasn't cutting it. That's right, I said it. And now I have taco meat. Yum.

Nico kidnapped me on Tuesday and we went to West Plains. (That makes it sound like far more planning went into than actually did...) Ate at Ryan's. ^_^ Went grocery shopping. We ran into a guy Nico's been talking to online, of all the random things. So yay.

OH YEAH. About a week or two ago I was on MySpace and Sam's status was something about "hates tires and rims and everything else!" The next day Kristy and I were driving thataway and I suggested we drive by and look at his car. Sure enough his car was in the driveway and the front tire was...bent over double on itself. I can't even describe it, much less figure out what the hell he did. Let's not forget, he delivers pizza for a living.

And I wasn't gonna post anything about it...but then when I was with Nico I found out that Brandon's in jail. *snerk* He didn't really DO anything, it was just a stupid mistake on his part (and he hasn't been there long, since Tuesday according to Nico)...but when I heard that, I just thought to myself...

"DAMN. It does not pay to break up with me."

Lol. Future boyfriends beware...

My dad just called me re: the stuff we're doing tomorrow (there's a benefit concert for...something...and they're buying my ticket and we're going to dinner, but he's not sure where we're meeting up, etc etc), and he told me to "just hang loose." XD I was still laughing when we hung up.