Until the Stars Are All Alight

Honestly, 90% of the questions are gender-neutral, I think. I didn't read it very closely before filling it out.

This is more or less an "I'm not dead" post--I don't have time to read the flist. Well, I do, but I don't want to be awake for another three hours. I'm trying to wind down.



Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy? No, it let me use the one that's a word, instead of demanding that I use the one that's a mix of letters and numbers.
What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them? Oh please, no one could MAKE me do anything. If he has to try, he doesn't have a chance anyway.
Are you a girly girl? In my own way. I'm not a trend or label whore, but I have VERY strong aversions to getting dirty/sweaty.
Big or small purses? Small. Duffel bags are for traveling.
Do you enjoy drama? Only at the theater.
Did you dress up on Halloween? Fuck yeah, cosplay is awesome.
How many guys will read this just because it says "FEMALE SURVEY"? IDK, probably the same number that would read any survey I posted.
Have you ever been called a bad influence? Hmm. I don't think so. Not seriously, anyway.
Do you think you're pretty, honestly? No. I feel like I'm the girl Stephen Lynch sings about, the Big Fat Friend. (The song is called She Gotta Smile, for those who need to look that up.)
Eyeliner or mascara? Mascara, if I have to choose.
American Eagle or Hollister? NEITHER.
Heels or flats? Um, how far do I have to walk?
Skirts or jeans? Jeans.
Straight or curly hair? STRAIGHT.
Have you ever had your heart broken? Well, yeah. Is fixed now.
Do you prefer light or dark haired guy? Pretty much anything but blond will catch my eye. Dom/Josh Holloway/Legolas are a few exceptions, which means...you have to be pretty dang hot, lol.
Do you like your life? I want to live in a city but can't complain beyond that.
Ever walked into the guy's bathroom? I had to clean it when I worked foodservice.
Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on? Once. I was already soaked from a water balloon fight. Seemed like a natural next step.
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? Yeah.
Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind? Of course. I'm marrying him.
Do you ever wish you were famous? Yeah.
Preppy or Punk/goth? Punk/goth. If I fit in the clothes I'd probably show a LOT more of that aesthetic.

GUYS:
Good cook or take you out a lot? Meh. Either way I get awesome food. (That being said Cody is both.)
Funny or Serious? Funny.
Long or short hair? Whatever works.

When is the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with a friend? Some birthday. 11 or 12. IDK if I still have the pic. =(
Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing them? Yeah, but usually only if it's someone I only know through my parents, or if I'm with one of my parents and don't want to explain where I know them from, lol.
On average what do you think you cry about the most? Honestly, anymore? Either about the idea of something bad happening to Cody, or if I think too much about how much he loves me.
Who was the last guy you talked to? Uhh...the Mexican dudes at the club that were dancing with us all.
Do you think best friends can be replaced? Well, it's happened.
Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot? I'm marrying him. ^_^
Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life? I've been told as much.
Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to? Kristy, I think.
What friend do you tell the most? See above.
Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Uhh...
Where's the weirdest place you've changed clothes? Lol. One time my mom wanted me to try on a dress before we drove home, so she made me do it in the backseat of the van, parked behind the mall in Mountain Home (back when the Wal*Mart was there).
Are you going anywhere this summer? Uhh, maybe St. Louis next month. Not sure.
Are you waiting for anyone's call right now? No, it's waaaaay too late for people to be calling me. If anyone called me I wouldn't say hello, I'd say "Someone better be dying."
Are you shy? Ehh...yeah.
Are you talkative? People who don't know me think I'm quiet, people who do know me wish I was.
Are you good at hiding your feelings? Mmm...maybe. IDK.
How is life going for you at this moment? It's okay. *pause for effect* I'm getting married! =D
Do you trust people easily? Yeah...but only once.
Do you give out second chances easily? No.
Do you smile a lot? Sometimes my cheeks hurt.
One thing you're looking forward to? The wedding!!! =D
How do you feel about change? It's a good thing...when it's MY idea.
Last time you got a text message and smiled? About an hour ago. I was texting with Kristy after we all went our separate ways.
Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself? It depends. Sometimes on the people, sometimes on me, lol.

RenaissanceGrrl 185 days! says:
*poor Cody
Kristy says:
*?
RenaissanceGrrl 185 days! says:
*yesterday at the wedding we had to drive by a bunch of cabins/lodges to get to where they were hasing the ceremony
RenaissanceGrrl 185 days! says:
*and he was all "I bet they're going to shack up in one of these..."
RenaissanceGrrl 185 days! says:
*and I was like "well maybe, with him leaving for the Army IDK if they have time to go on a real honeymoon or not"
RenaissanceGrrl 185 days! says:
*and he was like "Yup. Someone's getting laid tonight, and it's NOT ME."



(Yes, Kristy and I tend to use lolcat terms, hence the "hasing.")

So Saturday was my birthday, and I'm 23 now, but that's beside the point, and at the same time the crux of everything. Lol.

Okay, so Kristy got some birthday money a couple of weeks ago (her bday's three days before mine but whatever), and since she had finally given up on her car ever being in good working order a week or two prior to that, she invested in a bike, and a bike trailer if she needs to haul a kid. Being the awesome friend that she is, she taught me to ride. It took me two days and I'm still not the best rider, but I got the basic hang of it. (I think I probably posted about this at some point...ah yeah, in this meme.)

Then I got really stoked--if I could get a bike of my own, I could ride it! I could go to Cody's or her place, or the post office, or Walgreens, or any number of places within a couple of miles (I can walk at least four miles and that's easily well beyond getting to any of these places, and a bike would make the trip faster and easier so I could theoretically go even farther if I had the need, right?). I could save gas AND lose weight before the wedding! So I decided that that's what I wanted for my birthday--a bike.

Long story short, my parents got it for me. (I had been thinking that I would take birthday money from them and my grandmother and go buy it myself, but they went ahead and surprised me. ^_^) We went out to birthday dinner on Thursday since they were going to be out of town on the weekend, and then we came back to my place "for cake" and they wheeled in the exact bike that I wanted! =D

Later, after they left, I texted Kristy and was all "ZOMG BIKE YAY!!!" and she texted back that we should go riding. Through some texts this shifted to I should come over for lunch, then when I said that I was a wee bit scared to ride across town alone my first time out, she agreed to go in to the office in the morning that day, meet me at the corner and we would bike to her place.

All went well. It took nearly an hour to get there (fifty minutes) and I had to stop and catch my breath a lot (HILLS ZOMGWTFBBQ), but other than more or less crashing into a utility pole (more like a bump, slow as I was going, didn't hurt anything) nothing out of the ordinary happened.

I set back home at around ten past five. I called Cody before I left so he'd know I was on my way (he was waiting for me at my house, having planned on having dinner with me). I was making much better time on the way back as I was walking my bike up the worse hills and catching my breath as I walked instead of trying to overtax myself--bear in mind, I was alone this time and was trying to be careful because there was no one to take care of me.

Well, I got roughly halfway back (I've checked this on google maps). I started wobbling a little (as I am still prone to doing, five weeks into the biking thing) and I was getting too close to the cars for comfort (there's sidewalk the whole way, which I took into account planning my route). So I swerved the opposite way. In retrospect, I overcorrected. >_<

I felt myself falling, and planted my foot on the ground to catch myself. Well, all my weight and that of the bike slammed into my knee, I felt it pop, and it hurt. BAD. I tumbled, but at least I tumbled into the grass and not the traffic. I tried to hop back up--nope, pain, not gonna happen. So I laid there for a second, then my next thought was to get the bike off my leg. I took my messenger bag off and then pushed the bike off--already my knee was like "NO! DON'T MOVE ME! AGGGGH!" While I'm sitting there, thinking I will let the pain subside, get up, and continue on my merry way, I hear someone asking if I'm okay. At first I thought it was a car that had slowed down or stopped, or had to stop for the light (this was right before an intersection), but as it turned out it was two Mormon guys. They had seen me crash and pulled into the driveway right before and gotten out to check on me.

They offer me a ride, or a cell phone, and I tell them no, I'm okay, I have my own cell phone in my bag, and I think if I just take a minute I'll be able to get up and go, or at least be okay to walk the bike if nothing else. One of them picks up the bike and sets it upright, on the kickstand. I also tell them that my fiancé can come get me. After another moment I get up, and the minute I put weight on that knee I KNOW I'm not riding the bike anywhere. I stand there, untangle my headphones, and they keep asking if I'm really okay and finally I convince them I am. Then they tell me they're Mormons like I couldn't read their nametags (even if they were without them, they kind of...stick out--they were either Mormon or JW, and I think the latter have a more relaxed uniform) and give me a brief schpiel and their card. Which was awkward, sort of, but they were both really nice. After I take their card and they're heading back to their car, a redheaded woman walks up and said she saw me crash and just had to turn around and make sure I was okay, and offered her cell phone. I tell her all the same things but thank her for stopping.

So I start wheeling the bike along. By the time I'm to the next intersection I'm grateful for the bike-as-crutch. And yes, I could have called Cody, but I was really worried that he would make me LEAVE the bike wherever he found me. (He says now he could have fit it in his car, but still.) He'd been after me about getting a helmet--it's not the law here in Arkansas and I didn't want to fool with it, and certainly didn't want to spend the money on one.

I knew I'd done something to my knee, at one point I tried walking on the non-kickstand side of the bike because my arms were getting tired and I only got about two steps. Also at one point with a steep slope down, I tried to coast downhill--I couldn't bend my knee far enough to pedal but I thought I'd save a little time and effort. I couldn't get the bike going, though, at least not without wobbling, and when I lightly tapped that foot on the ground it hurt VERY badly.

Anyway, I walk more or less a mile home (you can walk places where there are no roads according to Google Maps, after all) and get inside. Cody could tell I was upset.
"Are you okay? What's the matter, sweetie?"
"I have something to tell you, but you have to promise not to freak out."
"Waitwhat?"

And I tell him everything (showed him the card the Mormons gave me, lol), and I roll up my jeans to see, and of course the knee is swollen. I insist that ice and painkillers will be enough to fix things. I'm not BLEEDING so OBVIOUSLY whatever I did couldn't be too bad.

I kept ice on it, and I don't remember when, but I figured out that it hurt to bend it too far and I flat couldn't straighten it out all the way.

Monday night thehobbitwaffle directed me to the Mayo Clinic's website and I deduced that what I probably actually did was tear or bruise my cartilage. Their recommendation? Ice, Tylenol, keep it elevated, don't walk too much, and it should take care of itself.

So I've been limping around ever since Friday afternoon. Kristy had her Annual Birthday Costume Party the next day and I sat better than 95% of the time. I've been trying to veg as much as possible and not walk too much, and not go up or down the stairs until I HAVE to, though yesterday I felt good enough to walk around Wal*Mart (leaning on the cart) with Mom, and today I finally drove. (It's difficult to get in and out of cars, though.) It's been hurting less every day. I can kneel ALMOST without pain, but I can't bend it any further. I'm hoping I'll be able to fully straighten it soon--the swelling simply won't allow it at this point, though the swelling doesn't look that bad to me.

Cody has been an absolute dear. The first two days when I could barely walk without something to lean on, he cooked for me and made trips up and down the stairs and to Wal*Mart as needed, even when it was for costume things. =) He is so good to me--better than I deserve, really.

And speaking of Kristy's costume party, Cody and I went as Lady Luck and a gambler. =) I got him into an all-green outfit--nice shirt and pants and a TIE (OMG, he was SEXY) and drew a mustache on him (the only thing he wanted...weirdo, lol), and I wore my red dress from Shelly's wedding with a string of playing cards tied around me, and we both had shamrock necklaces. (Yay St. Patrick's Day, on which I failed to consume any alcohol whatsoever. And I had rum in the fridge!!) Kristy has all the pics, I will post when I get them, lol. And don't worry, Shelly. I didn't actually alter the dress any, so I can still wear it to a formal function if I ever have one, lol. I got the idea googling "red dress costume" but so many of the ideas I saw required a short red dress or gluing things to it! >_< I was pleased with myself--Cody and I spent all of $4 on these costumes, $3 for the necklaces and $1 for a deck of cards, since I don't have any that aren't special, lol. With a larger budget and more time, I probably would have added a fake cigar and a fedora for Cody (mine didn't fit him), and I've seen boas made out of fake dollar bills for me. Also dice or dollar sign jewelry. I have a black shawl and meant to grab it but forgot (what with the whole having a hard time walking thing).

Next time I have a chance to wear a costume, though, I think I'm going to steer away from the "concept" costumes. Last year I was the Snow Queen and no one got it, and this year only one person claimed to get Lady Luck--and that was after someone else asked me. She was all "Oh yeah, I thought that's what you were, I was going to ask." (Then again, I didn't do much better with Josie from Josie and the Pussycats at Halloween, but I think that was just plain too obscure.) Cody and I have batted around the idea of going as Peter and Lois from Family Guy, though, lol. (This would be at some point in the future if/when Cody gets tired of his hair, I guess. I can't fathom fitting a short wig over that massive hair. Now that I think about it, he could wear the same green pants as the gambler. Lol.)

Okay, I think that's enough content to make up for my non-content entries for a while, other than this last tidbit...

Most of you probably remember me talking about Sam. I was going to link to all the entries tagged with his name but I think the breakup post does it the most justice; if you REALLY need the whole story you can click the tag. We were a couple for all of 91 hours around this time last year (two months before I met Cody). Anyway, while Kristy and Cody and I were sitting around waiting for more people to show up (Kristy was still working on her costume, lol), she said "blah blah blah Kristin blah blah blah Dena blah blah blah Sam said something about bringing a roommate..." And I was all "Sam's coming?"
"Yeah."
"Oh." *turn to Cody* "That's the guy I was with like right before we met..."
"The one who didn't last a week?"
"Yeah."
Well, he showed up and there was no drama, everyone was cordial all around, Cody included (because he is AMAZING. Period.). At one point pretty much everyone was playing Rockband in the living room, but Kristy was still sewing her costume and Cody and I were sitting at the kitchen table with her. Cody leaned over and pulled me close so he could whisper. "The one in the red shirt, right?"
"Huh?"
"The Trekkie." (Sam was costumed as a redshirt from Star Trek. It was a pretty decent costume, IMHO.)
"Oh. Yeah. That's him."
... "HE dumped YOU?!"
I busted out laughing, I'm surprised no one asked me what was so funny. Later on back at my place, Cody was all, "Sweetie, you deserve way better than me but I'm like a thousand times better looking than that guy!" Glad he could see it. =) He's such a sweetheart, I'm reminded constantly...okay, I should stop there. I'm sure none of you want to hear me wax poetical about being the luckiest girl in the world and all that jazz.

I need to get some sleep--or, at this point, stay up all night. I think I'll go for the former. Top of the morning to you!

The rules: pick 15 people and give them the "you make my day" award. If you're picked, you are charged with picking 15 of your own.

Cody, of course, for being the most awesome human being alive and insisting that no, that's actually me. =)
darkest_crocus for being my best friend for forever. And producing an adorable goddaughter. And smiling and nodding when my conversation starter is "Boys don't make any sense!"
princessnico for giving me my daily recommended amount of fabulous.
solarflare1103 for teaching me to ride a bike and listening to me carry on like a six-year-old about it. And like a sixth-grader the rest of the time.
smiley_face86 for not throwing too big of a fit about the slowness of my chapters...
littlelaiken for the awesome poetry--I wish I could compliment it better but know that I read and enjoy everything you post. =)
high_volzage for messing with my head now and again. SON OF A PENGUIN.
thehobbitwaffle for having the most insane conversations at the weirdest hours.
tyrel_roo for making me think.
eolmithrandir for critiquing my writing.
screweduptown for always making it a good time when we hang out--which we should do more.
listen_quietly for teh random. Yes teh.
kiashyel for being able to see beauty in everything, even pain.
pippinlives for always wanting to chat about relationships and wedding stuff.
gamgeefest for always bringing it back to Hobbits, somehow. =)

(I wonder how many of the people mentioned here will never know since they never look at LJ...)

more lol celebs!

XD XD XD XD XD

...yeah. Don't ask.

For those of you looking at my (Facebook, where I first wrote this) status, no, he's NOT moving in with me (well, not now, anyway. Next year we'll be getting married and that's a whole different ball of wax). He's actually moving in with Nico (because I totally don't spend enough time there already). Sounds like a new sitcom waiting to happen, doesn't it? The boyfriend and the gay boyfriend living together, lol. Nice.

Anyway, I'm still a bit in shock--he was supposed to come up and spend Thanksgiving with my family. On Wednesday Kristy texted me saying she was going through Cave City on the way to pick up her dad, and asked if I wanted to tag along, and she could pick me up on her way back. I was like "Well, Cody's coming anyway, he can just drive me back and be here a night early, whatever." That was the plan, but as Kristy was dropping me off, Cody was in the driveway and he was answering a phone call. Kristy drove off, but as I was listening to Cody talk it became apparent that it was his mom, throwing a bitchfit and telling him that no, he couldn't go after all. =O

Cody and I went inside and he was like "I'm tired of this, it's my life," etc etc. (The same thing I went through when I wanted the hell out of Mom and Dad's house.) The discussion went through several iterations, but finally it boiled down to this: he wanted out, and he wanted to be near me. (The former has been going on since long before he met me.)

So when his mom got home, he was like "How would you feel if I moved out?" Meep. But she didn't cut off any heads or anything, was just like "Well, if that's what you want to do you're eighteen so you go ahead."

He paid them a thousand dollars for the car of hers that he's been driving and that's pretty much that. We loaded it up with the most important of the computers and a lot of clothes (I don't know where he was hiding them all but he has more clothes than me!) and other stuff, and...yeah. A lot of the stuff stuff is going to stay in the Room of Doom at my house (as I told Nico, "this is so last year!" because it was just like last October when he stayed with me between apartments). That was pretty much the entire plan we had when we left his house. I called/texted Nico but got no reply until we were nearly there.

Again, long story short, Cody is moving in with Nico--my idea. Lol. He's got two weeks of school left this semester and is going to have to commute (DX), then he'll go to ASU here in MH for spring semester. He'll be getting a job after those two weeks. It's complicated @TM, but I think things are going to work--and I'll get to see him way more than once a week. =D

So, yeah. I know what I'm thankful for this year. ^_^

There Are 0 Gaps in Your Knowledge

Where you have gaps in your knowledge: No Gaps! Where you don't have gaps in your knowledge: Philosophy Religion Economics Literature History Science Art

I AM A SMART COOKIE!! (As Kristy would put it.)




( Because I really need to start reading the flist like every day instead of once a week...some of them are political, lol... )

You Are Candy Corn

Your Halloween personality is whimsical, colorful, and creative. You see Halloween as a time to get your creative juices flowing. Each year, Halloween can't start soon enough for you. You tend to go all out for Halloween. You decorate like crazy and always dress up.

Goddammit. I hate those things. And Kristy will find this doubly funny. -_-*

( Whee, more...see how evil I really am... )

THE SHUFFLE GAME! (Soundtrack to the movie of your life!)
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie.

Opening Credits: Innervision--System of a Down
Waking Up: Jim Henson's Dead--Stephen Lynch
First Day At School: Seasons of Love--Rent (Broadway)
Falling In Love: Back to Good--Matchbox Twenty
Fight Song: Without You--Rent (movie)
Breaking Up: A Man Has Dreams (The Life I Lead)--Mary Poppins
Prom: Hillibillies Like It In the Hay--Big and Rich
Life: Prayer--Disturbed
Mental Breakdown: Twinkle Park: Pleasure Castle--Sonic Adventure OST
Driving Far Away: Watermelon Crawl--Tracy Byrd
Flashback: Will I?--Rent (Broadway)
Wedding: Chao Garden Extended Mix (Chao's Wack-Wack Up & Down The Ground Mix)--Sonic Adventure 2 OST
Birth of Child: I Was Only Kidding--Weird Al
Final Battle: Who's That Man?--Toby Keith
Death Scene: Drops of Jupiter--Train
Funeral Song: Can't Get You Out of My Head--Kylie Minogue
End Credit: Crazy Little Thing Called Love--Queen

Yeah, I listen to a lot of crazy shit...but WTF? Three Rent songs? Two Sonic the Hedgehog pieces? Lol on Weird Al, though. "We're having a kid...I was only kidding!"  XD Epic awesome death music though.

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Gacked from tyrel_roo
1. Where is your cell phone? Pocket.
2. Your significant other? Brand-new.
3. Your hair? Humidified. =(
4. Your mother? Self-righteous.
5. Your father? Preachy.
6. Your favorite thing? Books!
7. Your dream last night? Nonexistent.
8. Your favorite drink? Slushy.
9. Your dream/goal? Bestseller.
10. The room you're in? Office.
11. Your church? Unprioritized...
12. Your fear? Dogs.
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Married.
14. Where were you last night? Kristy's.
15. What you're not? Pretty.
16. Muffins? BLUEBERRY!!
17. One of your wish list items? Comics.
18. Where you grew up? Here. =P
19. The last thing you did? Facebooked.
20. What are you wearing? PJ's.
21. Your TV? Dying.
22. Your pets? FISHEH!
23. Your computer? Visssssssta.
24. Your life? Fabulous!!
25. Your mood? Giddy!
26. Missing someone? Always.
27. Your car? Laurien!
28. Something you're not wearing? Manicure.
29. Favorite store? Claire's!!
30. Your summer? Hot.
31. Like (love) someone? Yes!
32. Your favorite color? ZOMGPURPLE.
33. Last time you laughed? Today.
34. Last time you cried? *shrug*
35. Who will repost this? kitty0_o 

Night!