rena_librarian | Entries tagged with valentine

Salsa got canceled, so I didn't have to deal with Brandon, which was all in all a good thing. I like him, but I did NOT want to see him yesterday.

Tried to talk Nico into going out but he didn't want to do anything, and no one else was available, but I refused to sit at home, so I went to El Chico's and had the most delectable piece of chocolate cake, a pear margarita (it was dusty rose in color, quite pretty and quite tasty), and of course the obligatory chips and salsa. Was hoping to run across a cute single guy but I guess on SAD people tend to go out in pairs...? Silly people.

Drove up to Missouri, topped off the gas tank, and bought a lotto ticket and a scratch off. I won a free scratch off on the scratch off, so I got another one, and won ANOTHER free ticket. Scratched it and won ANOTHER free ticket. I told the woman that if I got another one, I'd take my dollar back (because that's your choice; you win a free ticket and you can have a ticket or your dollar), but then I DID win ANOTHER free ticket and she talked me into trying again (and at this point I wondered if they ALL had a free ticket! O_o), and of course I didn't win anything. I should've taken my dollar, lol, but it was kind of funny.

I seriously considered driving over to West Plains and going to the Firehouse while I was that far, because I figured if single guys were out on the prowl they'd be there, but A) I still had to get up this morning, and I've got a lack-of-sleep headache as it is, and B) I wasn't dressed for it by a long shot. I was still wearing what I wore to work, and nobody wears khakis to go clubbing. Especially not pinstriped khakis. (Though the top probably would have been okay had I ditched the jacket; it was just a black tank top.)

I really wish yesterday had been Friday; I'd be sleeping now.

I also wish I knew what I wanted for lunch now that I finally got paid. And I wish I knew when my tax refund is going to get here. *sigh* And why I got a bonus check this month when I'm relatively certain I didn't set a single damn demo in January. (Maybe someone...purchased? OMG OMG OMG.)

Yeah, now I'm rambling...

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: work
Current Music: The Animal Song--Savage Garden

Betty or Anne, one (I wasn't here and Kristy wasn't sure) left me a fun-size Butterfinger, Abi got me a tiny box of Russell Stover chocolates (there were three in the box, teehee), and Gloria just came back here with chocolate from my parents that Dad dropped off at the front desk--chocolate "roses" in a box and a heart-shaped box of Reese's Peanut Butter Cups. (They know me so well.) And Gloria said my outfit was cute. ^_^

So not quite the chocolates "from your secret admirer!" that I was fantasizing about (and which have seven hours to materialize before I leave today...I'm so sad, this day lives up to its alternate name), but definitely better than no chocolate at all.

(Pics later. Maybe I should start carrying my camera cord and mp3 player cord so I can just use them here @ work?)

And in other news, salsa might get canceled, and I might NOT have to deal with seeing Brandon today, or with wimping out about seeing him today! (Kristy offered to call him and tell him to stay away, lol.)

I wish I had $$$ (come on, tax refund, post to my account today!!). I think I'd go clubbing.

ETA: Better than anything: Nico called me this morning and informed me that his ex-roomate (the guy) was helping clean up the tornado as part of his SENTENCE. Yay for the boss of Taco Bell doubling as a cop and finding these things out. XD

Current Mood: hopeful
Current Location: work
Current Music: My Sacrifice--Creed

So tomorrow is SAD (Single Awareness Day) again.

It ALMOST got to be Valentine's Day this year.

Fuck you, Brandon.

Oh, goddammit, tomorrow is salsa, too. I have to SEE him tomorrow. Somebody shoot me?

Current Mood: disappointed
Current Location: work
Current Music: Pity Me--World Without Sundays (shuffle is SYKIK!)

So it's one month to Valentine's Day and I'm not any closer to not spending it alone than I ever have been. -_- Yet another SAD--Single Awareness Day. (Why yes, I am well aware of how appropriate that acronym is!)

And exactly one month after that is my birthday. I'm looking forward to it; I'm in an even better place than I was LAST year when it rolled around (both the nicer apartment and in life), but turning 22 makes me feel OLD. I think it's mostly because 21 is the last "landmark" birthday before the over-the-hill birthdays come along. The next landmark is 30. On the bright side, this puts me in the same age group as all my friends that are older (Katchan, Nico, Jacqui, Kristy...more or less all my close RL friends but Michele...)

But damn. I kind of figured that by this point of my life I'd've been in at least one relationship. Whether it worked out or not would be immaterial. (I doubt I'd end up married to anyone that I would have started dating before I moved out.)

On the bright side, that's the only thing I've set out to do at some point in my life that I HAVEN'T accomplished...

Meh. I'm vaguely irritated by this but not nearly as upset as I could be. (It will be worse as the days roll closer, I assure you. There's a WHOLE MONTH in which, you never know, I could magically obtain a secret admirer. *goes off to delude self until then*)

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Location: work
Current Music: Haunting Me--Stabbing Westward

I am on my way to work, since I have to be there at four. Hence why DLBE is gettin' no lovin' today.

*sob*

I'm tired and cranky and my bag of purple-wrapped Hershey's kisses is back at home.

Woe is me.

Though, honestly, this has absolutely nothing to do with being depressed about being single (AGAIN) on S.A.D. I just need a nice nap and all would be well.

Shelly--I would have had your chapter for you, but me being the genius that I am, left the disk I had yours on at school! Luckily it was still in the computer this morning, so you'll get it tomorrow.

Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: library noise

rena_librarian will have to write:

I will not be distracted by passing butterflies

'What will you have to write on the chalk board?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Nico said I would, though. XD

Your Candy Heart Says "Marry Me"

For you, love is serious business. You don't take dating lightly.
And even if you haven't met the right person, getting married is something you expect to do soon.

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic picnic in the park

Your flirting style: subtle and calculating

What turns you off: short term flings

Why you're hot: you're a hopeless romantic with each new relationship

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

Shock, shock!

<td align="center"> You are SuperGeek.
(Your alter-ego is rena_librarian)

Your super-hero ability:

Fight anything at 23 times the speed of a normal human

'What is your superhero ability?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is high.
You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.
And in return, you expect the same from who you love.
Any sign of straying, and you'll end things.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is medium.
You probably have had a couple significant loves.
And you may have even had your heart broken.
But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people.

Dominance:

Your dominance is low.
This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.
You know a relationship is not about getting your way.
And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is medium.
In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."
You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.
But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

All but the needing-my-space part. XD

Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: Nico's TV

Thanks to the "anonymous" who bought me the virtual yellow rose! (See my profile until...March 4th, I think, to see it--it's all over the LJ frontpage, so please don't ask me about the details, lol.) Luff! LUFF for the Rena! YAY!

And it's YELLOW. WOOT for non-traditional-ness! (Someone has listened to me ranting about the cheesiness and uncreativity of red roses!)

Whoever you are, tell me! I'm all curious now!

I have a funny feeling that that was Kat, but I could be mistaken.

Current Mood: touched
Current Music: library noise

So S.A.D. is nearly upon us again. For those of you who weren't reading last year and/or aren't Nico who heard it at work, that's Single Awareness Day, known to the romantic-relationship-members as Valentine's Day.

Since I don't want kids (and very possibly couldn't have them even if I did want them, conveniently enough) I'm not exactly freaking out about my biological clock, but...dang. I'm going to be twenty next month and I've never been in love--at least, not love that wasn't unrequited.

And I know...I should just wait and let it happen when it's meant to happen or it won't last anyway. There was a bit of a tiff at BCM when one girl asked for prayer because her friend was worried she'd never get married and someone else started spouting off that that meant she wasn't right with God or she wouldn't be worried... *wants to rip out hair...of that other person*

I don't think I'm asking too much, that I'm overly picky. I have a few very basic guidelines (Christian, nonsmoker, intelligent enough to read aloud without stumbling over anything) but beyond those it doesn't matter to me. And everything indicates that I'd be a good girlfriend. (If you can trust internet quizzes and your chick friends' opinions, lol.)

I keep crushing on various guys and they seem to keep not noticing my existence. Should I make the first move again? It didn't work before (long story), I don't know why it would now. But then is one failure enough to go on to form that opinion?

I think the worst part is last year on S.A.D. I swore that by the time the next one rolled around things would be different, and nothing's changed--at least not on the romantic front.

And even if I did get the guts up to bare my soul once again...who? There are a few possibilities. There's one guy at work (remaning nameless since I have work people reading this), the guy from physical science who, on hearing me humming PotO music, hummed the next line, and opens doors for me when we walk to class together...or maybe I should give the whole Kyle deal another shot? (No, probably not, at least not until we've gotten a chance to hang together some more.) Or maybe the next time I go to Hastings I should flirt a little more with the cute guy who complimented my "ANTIcrombie" shirt today. (That was quite cool, actually, I was disappointed because no one at school seemed to notice and then when I was checking out, he was all, "I really like your shirt.")

And on the other hand, the last thing I want is to get involved with a guy who's going to want to stay here. And how, exactly, do you ask a guy where he wants to be in ten years when you've barely met? Maybe I should just ignore all the males in my life (save the ones that have been established as NON romantic-possibilities) until I get to college this fall, in a place where I wouldn't mind staying for the rest of my life. Or leave it up to Kat when I get to see her (this summer!)--she keeps telling me she'll set me up with someone hot. ^_^**

*sigh* Stupid boys.

It could be worse, I suppose. I could have stayed with the "boyfriend" I had when I was eleven end ended up raped. (Looooongish story...)

They're shutting down the library, so I shall stop with that thought.

Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: various Black-Eyed Peas (Elephunk CD)

We didn't technically have acting class today since Dr. Dilday is working with us all one-on-one, but I went anyway in case someone wanted to practice with me (read: so I could see Tim). I got there and it turned out that Tim was sick and was waiting to tell Dr. Dilday, and then Dr. Dilday sent him home. Gah.

Feel better, Tim. *sends a plate of Official DLBE brownies*

So to quote Henrik Ibsen's "A Doll's House," "The miraculous event did not occur." (Or something like that. Depends on the translation you get, anyway.)

Nope. No valentine. Unless some random guy in my algebra class has a crush on me, but I really kind of hope that's not the case because I wouldn't date anybody in there.

Why am I so hung up on this? It wasn't a huge deal last year...oh wait. I didn't have a crush last year. 'Nuff said.

I have a job interview after this, Taco Bell. Woo-hoo! I'll likely get it, as I was referenced to the manager by his wife--AKA my friend Becky. ^_^ *crosses fingers* *cxsan'tr trypew likew trhat* *uncrosses them for the sake of clarity*

Anyway. I'm taking comfort in Hobbity's Valentine and the fact that there is a five-inch heart-shaped Reese's Peanut Butter Cup waiting for me at home.

I don't know WHY I'm so disappointed, I KNEW it wasn't gonna happen.

I got a new cell phone! Yay me! I AM NO LONGER TIED TO A TRACPHONE!!

Anyway. I gotta go, get to my interview. Wish me luck! (Except for Kade who doesn't believe in it. That's okay.)

Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: Strawberry Fields Forever--The Beatles

At least Hobbity loves me. The guys I know, that remains to be seen. Click to enlarge:

Hehehe. Gives a whole new meaning to be MINE! ^_- For those who missed it, SAD is Single Awareness Day. Hehe.

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: You Make Me Feel Like Dancing--Anne Hathaway (Ella OMPS)

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