memes and quizzes

( Let me get these out of the way before I put up a real post... )

This is why I need internet on the weekends!

darkest_crocus...

23! WOOT! *nances* (Yes. I know it was the 4th, lol.)

Fear my MS Paint skillz.

Headline...

This was less than an hour from where I go to school. The dad of one of my flist was involved in the shootout (he's okay, thankfully!).

My God. I could have passed this creep on the road for all I know. *shiver* I didn't hear about this until I got to class this morning.

And I think the worst part of it is imagining the remarks my dad'll make about it if this comes to his attention. *shakes head*

musings...

So S.A.D. is nearly upon us again. For those of you who weren't reading last year and/or aren't Nico who heard it at work, that's Single Awareness Day, known to the romantic-relationship-members as Valentine's Day.

Since I don't want kids (and very possibly couldn't have them even if I did want them, conveniently enough) I'm not exactly freaking out about my biological clock, but...dang. I'm going to be twenty next month and I've never been in love--at least, not love that wasn't unrequited.

And I know...I should just wait and let it happen when it's meant to happen or it won't last anyway. There was a bit of a tiff at BCM when one girl asked for prayer because her friend was worried she'd never get married and someone else started spouting off that that meant she wasn't right with God or she wouldn't be worried... *wants to rip out hair...of that other person*

I don't think I'm asking too much, that I'm overly picky. I have a few very basic guidelines (Christian, nonsmoker, intelligent enough to read aloud without stumbling over anything) but beyond those it doesn't matter to me. And everything indicates that I'd be a good girlfriend. (If you can trust internet quizzes and your chick friends' opinions, lol.)

I keep crushing on various guys and they seem to keep not noticing my existence. Should I make the first move again? It didn't work before (long story), I don't know why it would now. But then is one failure enough to go on to form that opinion?

I think the worst part is last year on S.A.D. I swore that by the time the next one rolled around things would be different, and nothing's changed--at least not on the romantic front.

And even if I did get the guts up to bare my soul once again...who? There are a few possibilities. There's one guy at work (remaning nameless since I have work people reading this), the guy from physical science who, on hearing me humming PotO music, hummed the next line, and opens doors for me when we walk to class together...or maybe I should give the whole Kyle deal another shot? (No, probably not, at least not until we've gotten a chance to hang together some more.) Or maybe the next time I go to Hastings I should flirt a little more with the cute guy who complimented my "ANTIcrombie" shirt today. (That was quite cool, actually, I was disappointed because no one at school seemed to notice and then when I was checking out, he was all, "I really like your shirt.")

And on the other hand, the last thing I want is to get involved with a guy who's going to want to stay here. And how, exactly, do you ask a guy where he wants to be in ten years when you've barely met? Maybe I should just ignore all the males in my life (save the ones that have been established as NON romantic-possibilities) until I get to college this fall, in a place where I wouldn't mind staying for the rest of my life. Or leave it up to Kat when I get to see her (this summer!)--she keeps telling me she'll set me up with someone hot. ^_^**

*sigh* Stupid boys.

It could be worse, I suppose. I could have stayed with the "boyfriend" I had when I was eleven end ended up raped. (Looooongish story...)

They're shutting down the library, so I shall stop with that thought.