My grandmother was sick for a long time before she died, and i wouldn't go see her. I *kind* feel bad about that, but to be honest, not really. I wouldn't go because i didn't want to remember her the way she was the last year or so before she died.... she did not look anything like she did before, she didn't know who she was or who anyone else was half the time... But i'm glad i didn't go see her. It gave me time to adjust to not having her there (lessened the shock a *bit* when she did die) and now i remember her the way she always was... i remember her in her rocking chair, i remember her letting me sleep in her bed when i was scared to sleep alone when my sister was in the hospital...
It'll be okay.
ha ha, you should have seen it sarah that night after i got off the phone with you. We were all about to go to sleep when i randomly *burst* out laughing... I was litterly rolling on the floor laughing, gasping for air.... my god. No one even knew what i was laughing at... ahhhhhh.....
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Date: 2005-01-27 07:47 pm (UTC)It'll be okay.
ha ha, you should have seen it sarah that night after i got off the phone with you. We were all about to go to sleep when i randomly *burst* out laughing... I was litterly rolling on the floor laughing, gasping for air.... my god. No one even knew what i was laughing at... ahhhhhh.....