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So I participated in a secret santa over on [ profile] beyond_dapper. And today was a bad day. And I don't know what possessed me, but I made a video of myself opening my presents.

So yeah. That's me. =)
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I'm toying with the idea of rearranging my room. (By which I mean my office.)

I was watching makeup tutorials on YouTube, which always makes me want to MAKE makeup tutorials, and I was kind of thinking about how the last time I tried that, it was really annoying because my desk faces the window, therefore the entire room is in the background, and therefore I would have to clean my room every time I wanted to make one.

(My sanity requires that I have one room that I don't worry about keeping immaculate.)

The best vloggers all seem to have their back to a wall in their vids. Makes sense.

But then it's I really want to fuss with that when I intend to move ASAP? I just went through and re-stacked the clutter in here to take up less space and decided not to actually go through it and organize, pending moving. Maybe I need to focus not on rearranging stuff that's mostly working but, if I get in a cleaning/organizing sort of mood, on getting rid of smaller clutter--like the stack of stuff on my scanner that I intended to scan but have been too lazy to fuss with. That kind of thing.

I'm also considering giving all my scrapbooking stuff to Alicia, because I've gotten to a place where I'd rather put the pictures online and get comments than to go to all that trouble for the pics to sit up on a shelf in a book. She, on the other hand, has four kids that she's making scrapbooks for and still loves it. So there's that. I don't think I'm ever going to take it up again--even if I was independently wealthy and all my time was my own, there are just so many other things I'd rather spend my time and money on.

Yeah okay that's it, I'm spending the rest of my organizing. More or less. Until the Glee Project. I'm setting an alarm for myself so I don't forget this time!

Also. I was debating between Fayetteville and St. Louis, but now I've pretty much made my mind up. I kept thinking about Fayetteville, and the truth is even though it'd be a lot of fun, I don't think I'd ever consider it permanent, it would just be a stepping stone on my way to bigger and better things. St. Louis, on the other hand, could very easily be permanent. (I won't rule out the possibility of ending up in Chicago or New York or maybe even England, but that's kind of like a win-the-lottery dream that I don't think I'd ever actively pursue.)

I want to be in a (geographical) place I'm happy being. If I run into the issue again of falling in love with someone who refuses to EVER MOVE AWAY EVER then I need to be in a place where I'm okay with that.

The person I'm being in the wake of Cody having left me is so, so different than the person I thought I'd be if--or later, when--he did. I honestly figured I'd be a Bella Swan, kind of wake up one day and realize I hadn't done anything in like four months. But I've been more creative than I have in a long time, and self-confident (though that's also largely stemming from weight loss, not gonna lie), and truly I am--or at least am aspiring to be--more of a Pink than anything.

The attitude, moreso than the actual behavior, lol. Cody already told me anything I did to his car he'd do to mine in return. =P
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I'm not sure why I've had this love/hate thing going on with LJ recently.

A while ago, I moved most of the crap that I follow via RSS (lolcats, GraphJam, comics, etc) to Google Reader, which I love--it'll archive everything until I FEEL like reading it, and will keep track of what I have and haven't read and is just altogether much better for someone as OCD as I am. (Also, I can pick and choose what to read--if I want to look at lolcats and don't have it in me to see what they're mocking on Pundit Kitchen, or want to only read about sucky/funny customers but don't feel like seeing what offbeat brides are up to, I have that option.) There's about two more RSS feeds that I can and probably will move soon.

Theoretically, only having actual posts by actual people on LJ (and therefore having much less to read even if I don't check it every day) was supposed to make it easier to do. But no.

I just joined a new (and apparently quite active) community on here, of Animorphs fans, with a weekly reread, and I think that'll poke me to get over here more often.

But the thing of it is, even if I do get better about reading what everyone else is up to (and please, if there's anything I should know about/read do tell me/link me; if I didn't comment on something major it's a safe bet I've missed it), I don't really know what to post anymore. I feel like my Facebook status updates cover everything worth sharing, lol.

I'm using Twitter to update Facebook now, since Facebook doesn't support my new cell provider and Twitter does. However, if I'm at the computer I'll also update Facebook that way, so if you only follow my Twitter you're going to miss updates. And I don't ever actually go to Twitter. I could have fifty kajillion comments over there for all I know. People I don't know are following me and I have no idea why. I just don't really "get" the concept of Twitter as a social networking sort of thing; it's basically Facebook or even MySpace stripped down to nothing but status updates, and I don't see what Facebook was doing so terribly. (MySpace got a lot less interesting once it started trying to be Facebook, lol. I do wish you could customize your layout and such on Facebook, but at the same time it's nice because you don't have to see what kind of juvenile crap people will put on their pages given the opportunity. Your background is a bleeding heart with a knife in it, really? YOU'RE FOURTEEN. STFU.)

People keep asking me what I (and Cody) do all the time now that we're married. IDK. People seem to think that I magically have all this time to work on my creative outlets, but honestly, I barely have time to read. (I guess one could argue that I should spend less time on the internets, but usually, I'm doing something else while I'm doing that.) Part of it is not knowing where to start; I want to write AND draw, and I know I ought to start with finishing a chapter for my story with Michele, but I also kind of feel like I'm out of the groove and should write something less likely to be read by other people, lol, just in case it sucks.

Not to mention, I did finally clean out the Room 'o Doom, and Cody has his office/workspace/he hasn't really decided what to call it, but now there's like ten boxes in my office that need to be better stored/organized. And I don't really have the furniture or space to do it right.

Also, I'm toying with the idea of chopping some bangs into my hair, but I'm hesitant. I'm afraid I'll look like I did when I was 14, I'm afraid that the real reason I want to do it at all is that I can't dye my hair purple at my job, I'm afraid I'll burn myself when I try to flatiron them. Also, a woman I follow on YouTube just took the plunge and while it looks awesome on her I 'm kind of afraid of being accused of being a copycat, even though I had the idea before I saw hers. (I realize how silly this last one is, yes.) I'm irritated about the job thing, because it's due to the dress code. Most of the office wears jeans and t-shirts on a daily basis in direct violation of the written dress code, and me, who wears jeans maybe twice a week and generally dresses very well, can't color my hair a crazy color because it's "unprofessional." Nor can I wear a hat. I REALIZE THAT A BASEBALL CAP WOULD BE TACKY AND UNPROFESSIONAL BUT DAMMIT I JUST WANNA WEAR A CLASSY LITTLE BERET ON MY BAD HAIR DAYS GRAAAH GRR DIE. Okay I'm better now.

Speaking of Altering One's Appearance, I'm way more into makeup than I used to be (meaning I actually bother to put it on as often as not, and like learning new tricks, and makeup now qualifies as An Interest of Mine). I follow panacea81 and xsparkage on YouTube, and kinda want to try my hand at making makeup videos. The holdbacks there: editing is time-consuming, I'm not sure I could do anything as awesome as the people already doing it do, and I'm kind of afraid of comments to the effect of "fat cows shouldn't wear makeup u tard!" Yey trolls. At the same time, when I mentioned it on the Offbeat Bride forums, I got a lot of positive feedback (plz plz plz show me how to do X!). So if I went back and posted there I'd have some automatic followers.

IDK. I guess I'm just going through an unproductive phase. Maybe I should go back to school...nothing makes one as creative as having a paper to procrastinate on. Lol. Actually Cody and I are batting that idea around, too, though honestly he'd probably go first (no way we could BOTH go back right now). Since we're married, OUR incomes are the only ones that would count for anything on a FAFSA, unlike before when our parents would factor in.

Another thing we're talking about/halfassedly working towards is getting a house. The rent got jacked up when Cody moved in here and basically every time we pay the rent we get this feeling of "dammit, there's money we'll never see again. WASTE!" I think I'd be okay in a condo sort of situation (still more or less an apartment and still having a maintenance guy take care of all outdoor chores etc) but Cody wants a house and I don't strictly NOT want a house. He's promised to take care of, or pay someone to take care of, the yard work, which I don't want to mess with. (If I was in a house alone I'd be the crazy lady with the knee-high grass...) So we're saving. We're poking at real estate listings. But we haven't taken the concrete step of trying to get a loan. IDK. It's going to be a while before we move, lol.

I had more to say than I thought.
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So before I go back to bed--

Er. Cody and I have differing schedules and he often wants to go to bed earlier than I do. So I get in bed with him and we snuggle. After he's fully out, I'm free to get back up and stay up as late as I please. This has actually resulted in me staying up until his alarm went off the next morning once or twice, lol. And tonight he went to bed at like 9:30 and I fell asleep too, and woke around like 12:30. I probably would've stayed in bed had I not needed to flatiron.

--anyway. I started a new job. Like going on three weeks ago, eep. Way to neglect LJ. I'm working for a collections agency. I have a desk again, joy!

Yes, I have seen names I recognized. No one here on LJ, lol, but still. (I probably shouldn't even say that. HIPPA and all, since most of our clients--ie the people not getting money from people--are doctors.)

Not that it matters--thus far my duties have been data entry and mail sorting, checking up on other people's work and taking payments. I'm not in charge of the decisions like ZOMG RAWR WE'RE GONNA SUE THIS DUDE FOR OUR MONEY BLARGLE BLARGLE BLAH.

Officially, I'm training for several positions, and may or may not be put into a particular niche later on. I'm indifferent, really. I have a desk and guaranteed hours and don't have to wear a uniform. =) (I think the dress code is pretty lax as far as these things go--I've seen people in jeans and t-shirts. I'm more worried about them bitching about my makeup, honestly.)

And wedding plans are still rolling. We're 54 days out. Holy crap. That's almost, but not quite, two months. Eep. Must order purple paper!

Oh, and RSVP fail, family. 4 replies out of 80 invites? WTF?

And in case I haven't said it around here, I am REALLY into makeup now. Like I actually bother to put it on damn near every day, unless I oversleep. I'm working on making video tutorials for YouTube--more on that later, when they actually are ready to go up. =)

Cody and I went out to the fair tonight. We didn't ride any rides because the tickets were stupid expensive--or at least they were once you realized that most of the good rides required 2-3 tickets to ride. (Seriously, $4.50 to ride the FERRIS WHEEL? I don't care if it WAS purchased from the Neverland Ranch like a year ago.) But we had a good time, and he won me a penguin. =) There was a woman who would guess your age or weight and I told Cody to have her guess his age. She guessed 23. XD (Which just goes to prove that people don't exactly see us and think I'm a cradle-robber, lol.)

Okay. Bedtime. Tata!

February 2012



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