Do you have to be a good musician to get in the "27 club"?
Because also according to Wikipedia, Katy Perry turns 27 on the 25th. Just sayin'.
The only real tragedy here is that Chris (Kurt? Are they supposed to be in character?) didn't get a solo. SO CLOSE AND YET SO FAR. But hopefully this means that Kurt's got a shot at doing pre-80's Bowie as some point this season because clearly the issue is not getting the rights to his music. =)
UNF DARREN. *repeat forever*
( WOW holy huge YouTube frame, not sure how to change that, so have a cut. )
But, left to his own devices, HE STILL MAKES IT SOUND ROMANTIC.
(Anyone seen the Family Guy cutaway where Peter's on ecstasy and is rubbing Stewie's head going "It's so soft, HOW ARE YOU DOING THAT? HOW YOU--HOW YOU DOING THAT?" Yeah that's pretty much my thought process at this point. Minus the ecstasy.)
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG IT WAS AWESOME!
I might actually see a movie in theaters a second time, for the first time ever.
Worth $10 JUST for the Warblers' three songs+Born This Way. Easily.
AND AND AND the 3D was DONE RIGHT and was AMAZING. OMG. I actually feel slightly compensated for not getting to meet Darren IRL because it was SO SO REAL LOOKING. OMG.
Only sad thing: they didn't really show the between-song skits. So no Klaine proposal. =(
Also: if you go, SIT THROUGH THE SLUSHIE CREDITS, THERE'S ANOTHER SONG. I was the only one that stayed, and so I'm sitting there in my good seat and all the other people that were down by the door were scrambling to find another seat real quick to watch it.
Also. MINI WARBLER! =D
The whole conceit is that they really are in character whole time--the backstage interviews were Kurt, Rachel, and Mike (etc), not Chris, Lea, and Harry. To us it's Glee Live, to the people in the movie it's the New Directions/Warblers International Tour, intercut with some stories from fans of how Glee has changed their lives and what they've learned--which, honestly, was kinda Lifetime-movie-ish and I could've done without, because I would've much rather seen the skits. KLAINE PROPOSAL. WHY WHY WHY?
Also, I'm a bit sad--Kurt and Blaine don't sing together, unless you count the Big Group Numbers where they let Darren onstage. Kurt is not in the Warblers during their three songs.
Kurt's solo--I Want To Hold Your Hand--was really sweet. He kept pausing in the middle of it to say "Hi there!" to people in the front row. =)
What else, what else...? Oh, Holly Holiday was there and did Forget You, which makes me wonder--did Gwyneth Paltrow do the whole tour? Really? She didn't have a movie or anything? Or did she just pop in for a show or two and that was when they filmed?
Okay. Can't really think of anything else more specific than capslock and flailing, other than I'm definitely getting the DVD when it comes out.
But it was an amazing set, and Darren was exactly as humble/dapper/polite/charming/amazing/
How do you not just love a guy who walks out with his guitar and starts his set with a Disney song?
Okay. I'm putting the videos on YouTube first and foremost, and I'm sure I'll have more direct/coherent things to say there.
Also, this was why he wasn't signing autographs afterward, as far as I can tell (judging by the fact that it's empty):
And part of me thinks I should be kind of mad, but he just looks so darn adorable and excited--and I rode that roller coaster maybe half an hour before the concert and I don't blame him, it was awesome--that all I can really summon up is a mild irritation. Not getting an autograph just means I have a reason to see him in concert again. =) And. You know. Celebrities are people, too (scroll down to where he's answering the first letter, the bold text). Amazing as they are.I'm a bit ridiculously starstruck right now, and I need the concert on my iPod ASAP. OFF TO DO TECHNICAL SORTS OF THINGYS
So I'm effectively going to the Darren Criss concert in Dalton Academy uniform cosplay. (Sans blazer/sweatervest/sweater, though, because DUDE, it's JULY. Also all of the above would take more time/effort to replicate than I have time for.)
(Okay maybe the black sweater would be easy enough to find, and I know the "D" patches are out there, but again, JULY. Also, still the issue of time.)
Now I have...four days to hash out what kind of jewelry I can pair with it. And what to do with my hair. (Probably not much/mostly up because OMG JULY AND THE CONCERT IS OUTSIDE.)
Going to sleep now. GAH.
It's going to be a helluva crazy
I may well be going to work on that Friday on no sleep.
No idea if he'll be doing autographs or anything, I will be taking as much video as I can (I'll need to dump everything on my iPhone between now and then; honestly it takes much better pics/vid than my digital camera, which is starting to show its age). I'll be taking something to get signed just in case. I bought pink sunglasses, lol.
If I could find a Dalton tie for stupid cheap (the cheapest I've seen is $15+shipping) I would
What all this means to my family is another post that is brewing. =/
ON A THURSDAY.
If it was ONE DAY LATER I probably could have gotten that to happen, but there's no way I could do it on a Thursday, work-wise. It starts at seven, so even...WAIT.
Maybe I can miss half a day. If I leave work at noon Thursday I could get there in time. I'd have to drive back the same night and go to work Friday but...it's freakin' DARREN.
Entire iTunes, on shuffle. (Standard MO for me.)
A pretty piano riff starts playing and I try to place the song. (I have literally OVER 9000!!!!! songs. So. It happens.)
I come to the conclusion that it's either Two Beds and A Coffee Machine by Savage Garden, or Pearl Harbor Sucked and I Miss You from Team America: World Police.
What. The. Hell.
Also, the other day, I had to call someone from work, and got their voicemail (happens a lot, I could recite the message we have to give in my sleep). One person said "You've reached -phone number.-" Then two or three people chorused together: "SPEEEEEEEEAK!" Random Rent reference made my day! =D
So I have Klaine rolling around in my head a lot (I'm on the Klaine Train, I've been Klainewashed, I am a Klaineiac...love this fandom, no lie), and I ran across another reference to "Kurt loves scarves, I love Kurt" (a fandom thing, which stemmed from the canon line "Well, Blaine loves football...I love scarves"), and this old Sesame Street song popped into my head:
And now I kind of want Kurt and Blaine to sing it. For the lulz. (Not as a competition piece, but just, as a weekly assignment song or as a goofing around thing.) I am torn as to which of them should take which part, though--at first I was thinking Kurt for Bert, because lol the name and also Kurt is the more uptight of the two...but...BLAINE'S TRIANGLE EYEBROWS. IT'S THE PERFECT OPPORTUNITY TO MOCK THEM MORE. BECAUSE WE LOVE THEM.
Sesame Street's owners, though, seem...unlikely to let that shit fly, I would think. At least in canon. (Fanvid, anyone?)
I miss having someone to snuggle with, and talk to, and just plain don't like being alone in the house all the time. (Sometimes, yes. But constantly, not so much.)
But Cody himself? I find it really hard to think of him without thinking of all the dick moves he's pulled recently. (Because...during the last few weeks, there were a lot. And I'd rather not go over them.)
And that kind of sucks, because things were so, so right at first, but like I tried to explain to Michele--I really can't seem to pinpoint where exactly things went wrong. I think it was sooner than I'd like to think.
On the other hand, it was three weeks yesterday, and that can't possibly be right that I'm already so over everything.
I don't think anything is going to change; he won't talk to me. Or, more specifically--if I text/email/FB message/whatever him, he'll reply. But the only time he has contacted me in any way was when he was supposed to bring me money for his half of the car insurance payment, he called to make sure I was home. That's the only time I've seen him since he got the last of his stuff out of the house.
It's possible I can and will hurt all over again when I see him. And my heart breaks a little when I think about not being in touch with the members of his family that I care about (by which I mean pretty much everyone but his mother).
I just don't even know.
I want to be married again; but not to him, unless he goes through some drastic changes. (Oh hot damn, the Glee cover of Bad Romance just started playing in iTunes...appropriate much?) I've started noticing men and male attention in a way that I haven't since before I met Cody. Which is weird, and is not to say that I feel anywhere near ready to date or anything like that.
I'm so confused, and frustrated. I don't know what's appropriate to feel. He's the one that left, shouldn't I be more torn up? I thought vengefulness wasn't supposed to come until later, but I can't help but think about how he's going to be kicking himself someday, because my life is going to be more awesome than his.
A salsa song from the CD we got when I was taking salsa dancing played, and I found myself wanting to go out and eat Mexican.
Just now "Here for the Party" by Gretchen Wilson played, and I suddenly wanted to go to a steakhouse (you know, giant burgers and peanut shells on the floor kind of place).
So where's the song that makes me want to eat nothing but carrots and cucumbers?
I've blocked the people from work that I'm friends with on Facebook from viewing this as I'm trying to keep this quiet at work; I've told the supervisors but I just don't want to deal with the questions or the pity looks from my coworkers. It's hard enough getting work done without that kind of interruption.
Cody left last Friday. This isn't as much of a shock as it probably seems. We've been arguing for a while and I just haven't said anything to anyone because I didn't think things would end up like this. I thought we'd get things resolved. I wanted--still want--to work things out between us, but things have gotten to a point where I can't do it alone. Even if he called me up and wanted to come back, I would insist on going to marriage counseling. This is one of the biggest problems, really--he flat-out refuses to go to any kind of counseling or therapy, with or without me. My hands are tied--there is literally nothing else I can do.
I don't want to go into everything--I've hashed it all out with a few people already and frankly it isn't everyone's business--but the thing that really tipped the scales (and started us bickering at all) is that Cody's now decided he wants kids, which I made plain before we were ever even dating wasn't going to happen. And as much as this sucks, and as bad as I hate it, I still feel like motherhood (even adoption, even foster parenting with a limited age range) would be ten times more hellish than what I'm going through now. I haven't changed my mind in the last ten+ years, I don't think I'll be changing it in the future.
I'm not 100% sure what the future holds. I know for sure that if there's any way at all to make it happen, I want to move away--I've wanted out of this town for as long as I can remember. In the words of Beauty and the Beast, "There must be more than this provincial life." And without Cody I really have no reason to stay--in fact, I would've moved in November of 2008, when I was unemployed, but for the fact that I didn't want to make our long-distance relationship even longer-distance. I'll obviously need to get a new job lined up before I can pack up and go, though. I have two locations in mind but I have people I need to talk to first just to even see if it would be plausible.
I'll answer questions, if anyone has them, if they're not too nosy. If I decide your question IS too nosy I won't be afraid to say so.
I'm heartbroken, but I'm coping. I really don't have any choice but to move forward--I don't hold out a lot of hope that anything's going to change.
Added on LJ: I'm sure it's no shock to anyone that my main coping device has been music, but even I'm mildly surprised that Kurt from Glee has been my go-to--favorite character or no, I wouldn't think the songs would parallel. But Rose's Turn and Defying Gravity have helped A LOT.
There's a locked cart of boxes that all say "TIME SENSITIVE MATERIAL" with a "do not sell before" date on them, and they roll it out and will hand you stuff off of it. I had to wait behind like three gamer dudes who were there for Dragon Quest (I think? Dragon something that came out today).
It wasn't the mad rush of a Midnight Release Party (I so want to go to one of those in costume, someday), but both of the women working electronics seemed to think it was pretty normal for people to be waiting on them, lol. Interesting.
Was asked my opinion of the CD itself, so I'm pasting my comment because I'm way too lazy to write it twice in different words, lol:
Quite a bit of it is very obviously about her (Avril's) divorce, but there's a couple of her trademark rock anthems in there (the What the Hell single, obviously, and Smile, and I think Stop Standing There might qualify), and I've been listening to it since I got it.
There's a lot more piano and stripped-down-ness here and I'm digging that, too. =) Spring for the deluxe, it's worth the money just for her cover of Bad Reputation. She recorded it to play over the loudspeakers at her concerts and I had a bootleg of that, but this is the polished studio version. =)
Well, frankly, I do this all the time. If I'm reading or writing something and a certain song fits the mood of what I'm doing, I'll put it on repeat. (It's the ONLY way to write songfic, for sure.) I've been known to do this with new Glee songs just because I actually want to hear them that much. Eight of my top ten played songs in iTunes are Glee, and "Baby It's Cold Outside" is the only thing that's reached triple-digit plays. (My playcounts were all reset to zero when I had to reformat my computer last time, but still. That's been a while now.)
That being said, when I don't have a hankering for one particular song, my preferred method of listening to music is to have my entire library on shuffle.